Forever young.

2008-11-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

sfqomhz says:
ATIQAH SO MEAN
Atiqah. } says:
HAHAHA
Atiqah. } says:
EH I GOOD GIRL OKAY
Atiqah. } says:
*points to angel halo*
Atiqah. } says:
EVEN THE LIGHT IS BEAMING DOWN ON ME *points to the sun*

I LOVE MY WIFE.

2008-11-20T17:28:00.005+08:00

Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection.
Like an apple hanging from a tree, I picked the ripest one.
I still got the seed.

You said move on. Where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know.

Cause when I'm with him, I am thinking of you.
I wish that I was looking into your eyes.

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter.
Like a hard candy with a surprise center.
How do I get better once I've had the best.
You said there's tons of fish in the water.
So the waters I will test.

This song reminds me of you. I still miss you very much. Very very very much. I guess no one really knows. I'm trying to let go, and honestly, this whole thing is ridiculous. It wasn't supposed to happen in the first place. It's forbidden. They don't know I miss you, you don't even know I miss you. I bet you think I'm not into you anymore. I try to not think of you, but yes, you're the best. You may not know. You've never held anything for me, but what I have towards you is still as strong as ever.

He drowns in his dreams.
An exquisite extreme I know.
He’s as damned as he seems and more heaven than a heart could hold.
And if I try to save him, my whole world could cave in.
It just ain't right.

He's magic and myth.
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with more damage than a soul should see.
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him.
Hold on tight.

He’s soft to the touch but frayed at the end he breaks.
He’s never enough and still he's more than I can take.

This song reminds me of DANISH FAWAZ! Hahaha! I don't know why, it just does. I miss you, babi! You've been the greatest everrrrrrrrr, and friends for life, my dear friend. Thanks for always being there. You might have some other people that you can count on, but since this is a small world, and I'm so clinging, you're one of those that I need in my life. JEG ELSKER DIG! ♥ Hahaha omg that brings back memories. But ugh, what-eh-ver major loser.

I swear that you don't have to go.
I thought we could wait for the fireworks.
I thought we could wait for the snow to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt.
I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you.
Stay up all night with the stars, confess all the faith that I had in you.

It's too late, I'm sure and lonely.
Another night, another dream wasted on you.
Just be here now against me.
You know the words so sing along for me baby.

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry but you won't stop crying.
This anniversary may never be the same.
Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me,
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
And if I died right now you'd never be the same.

This song reminds me of so many people, and it sure reminds me of the scenario of the computer lab during rainy days, or how cold it really is in there. It reminds me of my ITC lessons, it reminds me of Atiqah playing the guitar, reminds me of Aqilah singing, reminds me of Firdaus, reminds me of Hafiz singing it for a forfeit, reminds me Din. Goddamn, I seriously miss you all. I remember singing this song out on the bus stop at around 7 pm, with Atiqah. Danish, you were there. And so was Din. And it was my last day in Singapore. And on that same day, me and Aqilah hugged and cried in each other's arms. I miss you all, I miss you all, I miss you all.

Katie, don't cry, I know.
You're trying your hardest and the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared.
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting.
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright.
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but I want it so.

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight.
I know he's there.
You're probably hanging out and making eyes while across the room, he stares.
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor and ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes.

Because these words were never easier for me to say or her to second guess.
But I guess that I can live without you but without you I'll be miserable at best.

You're all that I hoped I'd find in every single way.
And everything I could give is everything you couldn't take.
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away.
And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.

Because I know I'm good for something, I just haven't found it yet.
But I need it.

This song reminds me of all my bebehs. Reminds me of everyone I am close to in Singapore. Reminds me of all my loved ones, of all my teachers, of so so so so many people. Why? Because you people are all that I hoped I'd find in every single way. And nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away. This song makes me cry. I don't know what else to say. Because yes, I can live without you, but without you I'll be miserable at best. Is there really a need to mention who? I'm sure you all know who you are (:
Remember when we were going to take our 2nd English paper, and we all started tearing in the canteen because you guys remembered I was leaving after the exams? Atiqah started singing the song and we hugged. It's amazing how I can remember such little details. You guys are special to me like that.

ATIQAH.AQILAH.IZA.JAINI.BAVANI.FIRDAUS.HAFIZ.RYAN.DANISH.DIN.KHAIRUL
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2008-11-19T06:59:00.007+08:00

So yay, finally my Audacity started working fine.
Iz recording songz.

Although I only had a short time spent in Singapore, I have to say it was fun, although not enough.
Got to meet up with Atiqah, Aqilah, Iza and Danish. I wished though I got to meet up with Bavani, Jaini, Sharmini and many others. Hell, I wished I went for the Class BBQ. Who cares if it sucked? All I want is to meet my bebehs.

The moment I saw Aqilah tapping out of the MRT, we screamed and ran and hugged each other and didn't let go till like 2 minutes later, and that's because we were going round in circles in each other's arms. Danish and his little brother was there too. Omg, I don't even know where to start, it was awesome. Then we met Iza at McD's, where shortly after Danish had to go.

"Ala, jangan la marah, I tau I salahhhh~" [/gay danish]

So then, me, Aq, and Iza proceeded to This Fashion to play dress-up. Very the kecoh, but very fun too. We practically conquered the damn fitting room. Then, we met Atiqah outside. Me and her just stood there looking at each other, with people walking past us, and we screamed like idiots. I DO MISS WIFEH. Then we walked around and stuff, and yea. YEA, it was fun okay.

We walked around aimlessly, ate at another McD's and a lot of other stuff. Gawd, I miss them.
Oh yea, and I skipped the nikah just to get to see them. I feel bad, but I missed bebehs too much! I heard that Widad took a photo with Rihanna. Jealous much ehhhh? I know I am. And Rihanna said her hair's HOT. Woohoo!

Mannn, I miss everyone in Malaysia, but then... I wished that I could've stayed in Singapore longer. I seriously, seriously miss my bebehs, but at the same time, I was going to go mad anytime, cause Nini wasn't there. I miss her! Haha! You know what's the best thing that could ever happen? Have all my good friends in one place. I tell you, the most painful part is on the way back to Malaysia, cause on the way back, you have no friends to accompany you.

And since the only thing I was allowed to use was a Malaysian prepaid line, since I was in Malaysia anyway, I had to sms and talk to my Malaysian friends for company on the way back. Sorry to Azim cause I fell asleep in the car! Smsing a Singapore number with a Singapore or a Malaysia number in Malaysia is very expensive, so, yea. I still wished I could've smsed Aqilah like, all the way back home. I'm planning on smsing Danish later too, since he doesn't have my new number.

I MISS YOU ALL ALREADY.
Thanks for making my trip back to Singapore worth remembering.
So looking forward to December when you all come to raid my house.
And I am soooo going to bring you guys around Buit Jelutong and meet all my friends.
You guyz teh awesumzxzxxzxssxzxsxz.

Oh and I forgot to say, DANISH IS SO FUCKING HOT HAHAHA.
And btw, the photo did not capture him in his full hotness glory.

atiqah.aqilah.iza.danish ♥

2008-11-19T04:18:00.001+08:00

TODAY WAS SHIT FUCK PISS FUN GILER BABI TO THE MAXMAXMAXMAX.
SEE, I'M SO HAPPY, I'M CURSING.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
PICTURES, NEXT POST.
AAAAAHHHH.

And Danish, you're fucking hot.
HAHA.

2008-11-17T03:24:00.000+08:00

I like you and all but DAMN BOY, YOU'VE GOT ISSUES.

2008-11-17T02:14:00.000+08:00

I wish I was there getting lost in LA with you.

It's not like I'm awesome at singing or anything, but now I've got a style that only I can do. I have more confidence in my originality, so I can mix popularity on top of that but still leave in some ironic parts, and that's what I want to put into my songs now. I'm not changing my stance of being unafraid of trying new things.

I love Miyavi to bits.
And forever shall be my hero of heroes.

2008-11-17T01:26:00.001+08:00

I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called.
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at all.
And you flashback to when he said "forever and always."

AND IT RAINS IN YOUR BEDROOM.
EVERYTHING IS WRONG.
IT RAINS WHEN YOU'RE HERE AND IT RAINS WHEN YOU'RE GONE.

Cause I was there when you said "forever and always."
Did you mean it, baby?
I don't think so.

2008-11-16T15:27:00.002+08:00

I'm not your princess. This ain't a fairytale.
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world, that was a small town.
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now.
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now.

2008-11-16T15:20:00.002+08:00

I'M GOING BACK TO SINGAPORE TOMORROW YAYYYYY!
But I'm only going to stay for 2 days, what bullshit is that!?
How am I supposed to spend time with my behs?
Worse part is, when I come back, I can hardly go out because Nini and Nyrah will be in Singapore from November 19 till December something.
DECEMBER. I wished I had THAT much time in Singapore.

But whatever, make the best out of all the time you have... right?
ARGH.

2008-11-16T03:27:00.001+08:00

Loads of pics.
This blog is better off as a photoblog.
Many stories, but lazy to write.

Tata darlings.

2008-11-15T17:25:00.002+08:00

sfqomhz says:
joe looks fucking ridiculous with a moustache
Atiqah. } says:
HAAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
Atiqah. } says:
I WISH HE HAS THEM FOREVER
Atiqah. } says:
AHAHAHHA
Atiqah. } says:
JUST SO HE LOOKS RIDICULOUS ALL THE TIME
sfqomhz says:
HAHAHAHA OMG HAHAHAHHABCKJBCLKSDJ
Atiqah. } says:
he looks like a thinner version of super mario
Atiqah. } says:
AHHAHA

I LOVE MY WIFEY.

2008-11-15T15:53:00.002+08:00

If you hate on Taylor Swift merely because she used to date Joe Jonas, then you're an idiot. How does she dating Joe Jonas have got to do with her music? Let's face it, she makes awesome music, and being Joe's ex-girlfriend won't change that fact. I don't know the whole truth behind this "27 second" phone call, but I know that Taylor makes awesome music.

She's 18, a teenager and goes through what we have all gone through, and because of this, I love her songs as it expresses so much and is so easy to relate to. I've met a number of people who go all "I HATE TAYLOR SWIFT BECAUSE SHE WAS JOE'S GIRLFRIEND." Come on, as though you ever will have to chance to marry Joe at all. And Taylor makes much better music that those talentless asswipes.

But argh, whatever.

2008-11-14T23:41:00.003+08:00

Another crazy day. I slept over Nini's house yesterday, from there, met Kak Faith for the first time, met Eleena and thennn, hung out at her house and stuff. Kak Faith had this awesome dress which I could use to Moonlight Serenade. It's... GORGEOUS. Kak Faith is awesome. Eleena and Kak Faith have an awesome house and 3 really adorable cats. MEOW.

Went D'Pangkin and met Azim and Syazwan and on the way to my house, it rained, so we all detoured to Nini's house where we stayed till my dad came to pick us all up, except for Syazwan. Wish he could've gone along.

I think Azim has this weird curse that whenever he is around, Hotel 626 will not play. I mean, it will, but it will load so slowly you wanna slap yourself across the face. So we all comwhored with the webcam and took over 200 shots, AGAIN.

Overall, it was a fun night. Wish I could go to Eleena's birthday party and meet her for the last time before she flies to the Europe. I may have known her for only a short while, but she's still a friend right? Had a great time with her anyway today.

And damnnn, I miss today already.
Nini left her specs here again.

2008-11-13T14:48:00.002+08:00

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you, been here all along,
Why can't you see you belong with me?

2008-11-13T13:02:00.001+08:00

As much as I actually like you,
I think you need a slap across the face for once instead of a hug.
tyvm.

2008-11-13T02:11:00.001+08:00

NO WONDER.

So, for now, I shall give in.
I don't want to be the force that pulls you two apart.
Neither do I want to be the force that causes you to fight with your best friend.

I give in.
I do.

I'm sorry.

2008-11-13T00:21:00.002+08:00

I noticed that there's no day so far which I have not met Nini and Nyrah and Azim.
Even if it's for a while, we will SURELY meet.
Let me tell you, they're all I have right now to pass my time till I go back to Singapore (insert big fat YAY here)
CAN'T WAIT :D

2008-11-12T23:43:00.005+08:00

2008-11-12T00:31:00.003+08:00

You come away with a great story of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.
You never did give a damn thing honey,
but I cried and cried for you.
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody even if I died for you.
Every smile you fake is so condescending counting all the scars you made.
Now that I'm sitting it here, thinking it through.
I've never been anywhere cold as you.

but why am i still thinking of you?
this is wrong.
though, i can safely say...
it's slowly going away.
but you shall always be a part of me.
will never forget.

Well, it all could've happened and died 9 months ago.
Guess you were too special.

Why is it all coming back to me now?

2008-11-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

If you ask me if I love him,
I'd lie.

2008-11-11T23:46:00.003+08:00

This night was an awesome night.
Hotel 626 decided to be a bitch on the wrongest night, but nonetheless it was awesome.
One of the best hours in my life. Would've been even more fun if somebody decided to not get a fever. But whatever, I miss it already. To think it all happened like... 3 hours ago.

And those 4 shots weren't even 1/10 of the pictures we took.
I AM SERIOUS! D: I can easily say we took more than 200 shots, more than half of which are so nonsensical.

AAAAAHHHHHH ♥

2008-11-11T15:07:00.008+08:00

MY HEROES ♥
miyavi
atiqah.aqilah.iza.jaini.madihah.nini.nyrah.azim.aiman.danish

2008-11-10T23:52:00.003+08:00

HATE
is a strong word.
but i
REALLY REALLY REALLY
don't like
YOU

2008-11-10T21:57:00.001+08:00

2008-11-10T04:30:00.007+08:00

Finally found my lovely little piece of Heaven here.

"YOU'RE SO HOT."
"No thanks."

2008-11-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

She better hold him tight, give him all her love.
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause,
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The only one who has enough of me to break my heart.
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do.
He's the time taken up but there's never enough and he's all that I need to fall into.

2008-11-08T22:34:00.004+08:00

You don't know how sick you make me.
You make me fucking sick to my stomach.
Everytime I think of you I puke.
You must not know.
You may not think you do, but you do.
Everytime I think of you I PUKE.

If only you knew how much I hated you.
You're a fucking coke-head, I hope you fucking die.
I hope you get to hell and Satan sticks a needle in your eye.
I hate your fucking guts, I hope you die.

Fucking manbitch.

Seriously, what else do you want from me? Is it not clear that I DO NOT LOVE YOU, and right after we settled things yesterday, you came today just to find trouble. I don't care if he's your best friend, he's a good friend of mine too. And what does it matter to me, and to YOU if I am close to him because he is MY friend, and I have every right to talk to him or whatever. I am not even your girlfriend and I don't even need to care for your feelings. So what if you "love" me? I don't love you, so why should I care?

You spoiled a perfectly planned day by just crashing into the scene. Seriously, what kind of a "manly" act is that? The reason why I was avoiding you today was because I am so pissed off at you. You're everywhere whenever I'm hanging out with your best friend. And today, I went far away hoping that I won't get disturbed and at least be able to spend some time with him and my friends. But you just had to SPOIL it, didn't you? Why did you come here in the first place? To spy? Come on, out of all places, what are the chances of you "accidentally" coming to the same place as us?

Then, forcing us to buy movie tickets to watch the same movie as you. Forcing us to come and find you and though we're your dogs. Following us everywhere. NOBODY ASKED YOU ALONG. You came with your group of friends, you STAY with your group of friends. I don't care okay. Your best friend and my friends already made a promise to spend the whole day together already. So next time, you just stay out of it. What the hell is wrong with you. What more do you want from me?

CAN YOU STOP MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE?
Stop appearing here and there, cause it's annoying me to no end.
I don't care if you're jealous I'm close to your best friend.
I don't care if you "love" me.
I don't care if you're angry or jealous or whatever.
I DON'T CARE. And please, when I want to spend time with your best friend, allow me to. You have spend the last so many years with him, and for me and my friends, we hung out with him for only like what, 3 days? And you're already blowing this whole thing out of proportions.

Can you just... GO AWAY. GET OUT FROM MY LIFE.
I am so pissed off with you. You don't have to be everywhere your best friend is, okay?
When I am there, and you force him to go with you, I. Am. Not. Amused.

Fuck off Arief.

And just so you know,
I cried twice today not because I miss you.
BUT BECAUSE YOU KEEP ON MAKING MY LIFE A LIVING HELL.

Also, for your information, I am not insulting you.
I'm just stating reasons why I hate you.

I have never felt hatred this pure.

AND, I forgot to mention that this is NOT the only time you have made me feel so angry.
You have done so COUNTLESS of times, but I just REFUSE to write it down here cause I was thinking of your pride. I AM SO DAMN KIND. But now, that's right. I couldn't care less.

2008-11-07T11:20:00.003+08:00

the boy you never wanted just steals your heart.
i never saw it coming until i fell so hard.

2008-11-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

Epic failzors.
LAZY TO EDIT NOW,
tomorrow.

2008-11-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

Changed my blog title and banner.
In case you didn't notice, you might be blind.

And the welcome message, shall do once I return home.

2008-11-04T21:51:00.000+08:00

SISKY BUSINESS + THE BUTCHER =
You laughing so hard your bowels wants to escape through your jubhole.

2008-11-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale.
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around.

2008-11-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

Is it just me, or is my blog the more tranquil and oblivious of my friends.
It's... sad. To me. Cause, everyone's a friend, and now...

Let's just say I'm the middleman for World War 3, and I don't want people to misunderstand me.
I love you all, and I don't want to take sides. Either way, it still hurts.
I don't wanna be a hypocrite, sometimes it may seem like I am one.
Maybe I am, but it's because I don't wanna make it seem like I'm taking sides, so, I just go with the flow.

But whatever.
I'm the middleman, and I will try not to make things... worse.

I love you all :D

2008-11-02T14:51:00.002+08:00

I REFUSE TO BE A CASUALTY OF THIS INDIFFERENCE

FOREVER YOUNG

2008-11-02T13:22:00.013+08:00

MIYAVI, my husband.
He changed my life, he cleaned me up, he found my heart like only HE can. He made me discover myself, he's my drive, my inspiration, my voice, my soul, my song, my heart, my hero. ♥ I don't think I can ever have built a passion and found a dream if I had never found him. He makes my day each time, and every song he has written is etched in my mind, my heart and my soul. I am very protective of this man because I don't like people making fun of whoever it is that has left an impact in my life. He is all I need right now to keep me going to achieve my dreams. And don't be jealous that a guy in magenta nail polish can get more chicks than you.

GERARD WAY, my ex-husband.

He is undeniably an awesome person with a wonderful personality. He is always all-smiles and not forgetting he has a lovely smile. Whoever fails to love this man fails so much, because they are definitely blind. I knew him before I knew Miyavi, and he did the first few jobs to straightening my life out before handing it all over to my current husband. He got married to someone else already, but I am happy for him, of course I am (: He has been the bestest there is for the past 2 years I was obsessed over him.

BILL KAULITZ, my boyfriend.
You must be wondering why I have a boyfriend if I love my husband so much. Well, don't think any further. There is no reason. Bill makes awesome music and he, although young, is very talented and expressive. Miyavi is more expressive than he is, but hey! Bill just turned 19, and he definitely has a long way to go. He earned success through hard work and diligence, and for that, I love him to bits. He hasn't really done anything to change my life, but he's wonderful nonetheless. And yes, it's a he. A guy who happens to have long hair so you people think he's a girl. A guy whose face is effeminate and prettier than all you other guys out there. You're just jealous that a guy in black nailpolish can earn more chicks than you, just like Miyavi.

WILLIAM BECKETT, my best friend.

He's cute, I know. He's funny, even more. He's tall, has a great smile, wonderful personality, great sense of humor, wonderful singing voice, he's so... wow. I am not in love with him, but I pretty much look up to him and his group of friends, which includes oddities like Chislett, Mike Carden, Sisky and The Butcher to always make me feel better on days I'm feeling quite blue. They never fail to slap a smile onto my face because they are awesome and funny like that. Whoever has not seen these guys in action, but go and watch them ASAP because they. are. the. shiz. Great humourous bunch of people, who make awesome music as well. Who can't possibly love them!?

JOE JONAS, um whaaaat?
People who know me well, know damn well I do not like this guy. I don't even like him now, I'm just in this for the thrill. So yea, I don't hate him as much as I used to, but I don't like him much either. But, I'll have you know he's a damn good kisser and I should know, yes, I should know. And his saliva tastes like cherry/mint. No, don't even ask. Oooo, scandalous. And I just thought that after everything that happened, he deserved at least a mention for satisfying my lust.

2008-11-01T23:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I went over to Nini and Nyrah's and had like, TRUCKLOADS OF FUN. And their friend was there too. I don't know how to spell her name, but let's just call her Nana :D We went to Secret Recipe and all, like the other day me and Nini did. Okay, I seriously don't know how to describe my day, BUT IT WAS AWESOME.

And the next day aka today, 1st November, was Nini's birthday. She wanted to sleep over at my house, but her mum didn't let her, and somehow I managed to convince mine to be able to sleep over at HER house instead, AGAIN. Nana slept over too. Had fun partying in the guest room xD

But before there, we were all outside their house sitting down and talking, about stuff. They were all like, dancing in the middle of the road and all, and damnnnn, jealous mannn. I can't dance for SHIT, but they CAN DANCE. And we sat outside till 12 am and sang Happy Birthday for Nini.

IT WAS AN AWESOME DAY. So the next morning I had to go back home, and when I came back, everyone got ready to go to MidValley. And guess whaaaaaat. Nini and Nyrah's family went there too :D So we met up, but not for long, but it was funnnnn! <333

I GOTS MAH RATTAIL EXTENSIONS FINALLLLYYYY.

And after that, only my family went to Sunway and had loads of fun acting like idiots trying out wigs. Iskandar looks hot in a white or red afro. REALLY. And he pinched the nipples of a gorilla. We tried on loads of stuff and raided loads of shop. BUT BOUGHT NOTHING. My family rules.

Then Abah sped back home because he can't contain his bowels any longer.

More than just those happened, but there's so much to say, that... I don't know what to say xD
It has been a lovely week despite the exam shiznits and fuck. Tomorrow I have to study for Monday's exam, and wish me good luck babies!

Photos some other time (:

2008-10-31T19:19:00.001+08:00

>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
i look soo freaking ugly in my dp
sfqomhz says:
my friend said you looked cute xDD
sfqomhz says:
BUT I SAID YOU LOOK HOTTER IN REAL
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
omgggggggg
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
LOL
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
i'm soooo not!!
sfqomhz says:
YES YOU ARE
sfqomhz says:
you have a hot bod
sfqomhz says:
REALLY XD
sfqomhz says:
and you're cute
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
sfqomhz says:
im saying that in a friend kinda way okay xD
sfqomhz says:
YEEEESSSSSS
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
I'M UGLYYYYYYYYY
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
HAHAHAHHAH
sfqomhz says:
NOOOOO
sfqomhz says:
DONT ARGUE WITH TEH GREAT SHAFIQAHHHH
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
HAHAH
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
ONLY MY BODY NICE! BUT MY FACE SOOOOOOOO UGLY!!
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
HAHAH
sfqomhz says:
NOOO YOUR FACE NOT UGLYYYYYYYY
sfqomhz says:
YOU'RE CUUUUUTE XD
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
THAT MEANSSS I'M UGLY BUT ADORABLE!
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
HAHAH
sfqomhz says:
THAT MEANING WAS SOOO LAST SEASON
sfqomhz says:
really@
sfqomhz says:
*!
sfqomhz says:
go check the online dictionaries xD
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
show me
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
hahahah
sfqomhz says:
wait xD
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
omggggggggg
>>Those Left Behind - Patron Saint of LonEliness - Call To Faith<<>>sRkAx<<((LeadGuitarist)) says:
hahha
sfqomhz says:
cute /kyut/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[kyoot] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation adjective, cut·er, cut·est, adverb, noun
–adjective
1. attractive, esp. in a dainty way; pleasingly pretty: a cute child; a cute little apartment.
2. affectedly or mincingly pretty or clever; precious: The child has acquired some intolerably cute mannerisms.
sfqomhz says:
HAHAHAHAHA

I PREVAIIIIIILLLL.

2008-10-30T22:38:00.001+08:00

CHANGED BLOG BANNER TO

I have a bigger version, but shall post the smaller version here (:

2008-10-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

I DON'T CARE :D

2008-10-30T14:31:00.000+08:00

2008-10-30T14:12:00.001+08:00

MOST EMBARRASSING DREAM I EVER HAD.
But one of the nicest in a way.
I... shall... not... elaborate...

2008-10-29T19:39:00.002+08:00

I'm an angel, I'm a devil, I am sometimes in between. I'm as bad as it can get and as good as it can be. Sometimes I'm a million colours, sometimes I'm black and white. I am all extremes. Try to figure me out, you never can. There's so many things I am.

I'm someone filled with self-belief. I'm haunted by self-doubt. I've got all the answers, I've got nothing figured out. I like to be by myself. I hate to be alone. I'm up and I'm down. But that's part of the thrill, part of the plan. Part of all of the things I am.

I'm a million contradictions. Sometimes I make no sense. Sometimes I'm perfect, sometimes I'm a mess. Sometimes I'm not sure who I am, but I am special.

I am special. ~~I am beautiful~~, I am wonderful and powerful, unstoppable. Sometimes I'm miserable, sometimes I'm pitiful. But that's so typical of all the things I am.

2008-10-29T18:28:00.002+08:00

Over 80 new Miyavi pics from his worldtour! Actually 101, but I didn't save all of them. I have to get ready a new folder for Miyavi already on my PhotoBucket... I have like... 3000+ already? That's... THAT'S KINDA LITTLE YOU IDIOTS, OKAY XD *im a freak yay* They're all like... really awesome photos, but I shall post... only... 5. So that I won't kill you guys with too much Miyavi. I don't really care anyway, BUT 5 IT SHALL BE BECAUSE I CAN!

MY GUITAR HERO ♥

2008-10-29T17:18:00.002+08:00

Oh and did I mention I went to an awesome hotel in Kuantan?
YEA SO IT'S AWESOME.
We were supposed to go to the hotel next to it, but it was fully booked. Thank God it was, because Vistana is better than Hotel Seri BY A THOUSAND TIMES.

2008-10-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

Had a sleepover at Nini and Nyrah's.
Serious it was fun. Nini and I were singing like a bunch of drunk retards at the guest room. Watched Scary Movie and ate Maggi at... 1-2 in the morning? A lot of stuff happened.

Hung out with Nini when her family went out. We went to Secret Recipe, and damnnn, the Maccaroni and Cheese was delicious like weeee. Met Syazwan there. Made a new friend :D Went to Jalan Lagenda and camwhored. Photos not with me yet. Soon, I hope. It was nice photoooos. And before I forget, CREDITS GOES TO SYAZWAN AND ANIRAH :D

Theeen, they followed me, Abah and Umi to Giant. It was fun, fun funnnnnn. We were like... drunk people... singing and dancing here and there. LIKE FOOLS.

So... all in all these two days were really really fun. I can't put it into words at all! I seriously loved it! Aaaand, it also reminded me of my bebehs back in Singapore.

Like... remember the sleepover we planned but it didn't work out because Aqilah's mum didn't allow her to? And... we also wanted to spend a whole day together, but we didn't have the right time? And so many other stuff. The camwhoring and everything else. It reminded me so much of you guys mainly because... all these stuff are so Singaporean.

And also because I'm glad I've found friends which I can count on here whenever you guys aren't online or anything (: They can never be like you, just like how you guys can never be like them. But at the same time, you guys share things in common like... you guys are so fun to hang out with. Never have I laughed and smiled so much since I moved here.

Eehhh, don't take me the wrong way! I love you guys a lot a lot a lot equally! Just that a group is hereeee, in Malaysia, and the other is in Singapore. I can't wait to go back to Singapore to see you guys. Too bad I can't... anytime soon. But I still love you guys a lot. MAKE SURE YOU COME SLEEPOVER MY HOUSE DURING THE HOLIDAYS. That includes all my best friends :D

ATIQAH AQILAH IZA BAVANI JAINI NINI NYRAH ♥

2008-10-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

So I noticed that here, I can never belong.

People in Singapore understand me, and at least they love me. They don't find fault because they know me and they don't judge me based off assumptions. They don't hate me for anything stupid. Singaporeans speak out to what they think is not right, and at least they sit down and have a nice talk or discussion. Well, over here the damn students in Malaysia talk behind your backs like you're some idiot, and in front of you, they act like they're nice people. They need to be less girly gossipy bullshit girls and start opening their mouths to what they're not happy with.

I stole your friend?
Was it my fault she decided to follow me?

And now what, I'm hated for something I didn't even do and that is look at you and said "FUCK"?
Seriously, WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE THINKING.

I don't want anyone's friendships to be spoiled because of me, so if I really have to, I shall break apart all ties I have with anyone in my class right now just to get you all back together. I shall be a loner, just to satisfy your selfish stupid needs.

AND BE GODDAMN THANKFUL I'M NICE LIKE THAT.

2008-10-24T15:38:00.001+08:00

NOW AT NINI'S HOUSE <3
Tmr going Kuantan manz.

Shall elaborate more about today if I have the time.

2008-10-23T23:57:00.006+08:00

This has been the best raye EVER. The going back to Singapore, the buying stuff, the haircut, Bebehs, Nini, Nyrah and basically... everything! And yesterday, my money went zoom out of my wallet. Now I have less then RM20. Poor me, but am happy (: But now, I shall post pictures. Stuff that has made my day/raya GREAT! In some pictures, I was not there, but they surely warm my heart and make me smile. Because I know that no matter where I am, my bebehs and best friends are happy no matter what (: Photos not taken by me, stolen from Beh Qitot's blog.

Forever loved, ♥
Now, I shall go study (:

2008-10-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

NEW SONG.
君に願いを。
I love this song to bits.

2008-10-21T20:56:00.003+08:00

TOMORROW'S PERFORMANCE, GOOD LUCK BABIES!
tiqqy qitot ryan fizzy
make sure they all remember sunday maaaaaan.
geddit? remembering sunday? remember sunday? :D
i know tomorrow's not sunday though, but whatever :DDDDDDDD
♥

2008-10-20T17:38:00.002+08:00

I never promised you a ray of light.
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday.
I gave you everything I had.
The good, the bad.

Why do you put me pedestal?
I'm so up high that I cna't see the ground below.
So help me down, you've it wrong.
I don't belong there.

I always said that I would make mistakes.
I'm only human and that's my saving grace.
I fall as hard as I try.
So don't be blinded.

See me as I really am.
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin.
So pull me from the pedestal.
I don't belong there.

2008-10-20T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'M TURNING OFF THE COMPUTER AFTER SAKIHOKORU HANA NO YOU NI ENDS.
TODAY WAS KINDA FUN.
YEA MAN, I WENT TO NINI AND NYRAH'S HOUSE FOR RAYE WITH MY FAMILY AND BAM HEHEHE AND THEN PEOPLE CAME OVER. FUN SHIT.

Sorry, am writing in caps.
I LOVE GIZ.
I LOVE TEH EPIC FAILMAIL.

Shall elaborate more next time.
Running out of time xD

2008-10-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

ダメ人間
困ったちゃん
!!!!! AHAHAHA <333
Tal thought me :D yay i luffles youuu
Figure it out >:D

2008-10-17T07:46:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAH You can't friggin imagine what I'm watching right now. Hi-5!
Serious, I miss this damn show. I woke up at 7 am today, and turned on Nickelodeon and the show happened to be on. I miss the shoooooowwwwwww, reminds me so much of Singapore and back when I was in Primary School. I used to watch this show everyday when I came back home while eating food, which was usually Nasi Lemak which came from the mamak store that was OMG SO GOOOOD!

One thing about this Hi-5 though. They don't have Kathleen :( She's my fave Hi-5 character! They replaced her with this other called Sun. She's not bad as well, but I miss Kathleen. She was so damn cute! Sooo, being the noob that I am, I actually went up to research on why Kathleen left. That was when I found out that Kathleen's now a proud mother (!!!!) and whaaaat. Charlie left the group, and so did Tim because he was in an accident. So the only original members left are... Nathan and Kelly (speaking of which, didn't these two have a relationship once?) SO BECAUSE I'M A LOSER, I WANNA POST PICTURES :D

But so pitiful kay. I mean looking at them, they've been together for so long and then they all suddenly break up just like that. So as a tribute to the ORIGINAL team, crew and line-up of Hi-5, tada, pictures below. And also some others.

This is the one that has replaced Kathleen, Sun. She's not bad herself, but I still mish Kath!

And this is Stevie, the new guy that's replaced Tim. He looks like some dude out of a new rock Indie band xD Too bad that he can't be a singer, because it's so hard to imagine him other than... a Hi-5 member.

Yes call me stupid and childish, but I do hope that they're all still pretty much in contact with each other. It'd be a pity to see a bond garnered throughout 10 years gone just like that.

HAHAHA I AM SUCH A LOSER.

2008-10-17T03:11:00.004+08:00

Okay, no wonder when I tell people I am studying Japanese, they laugh.
It's so hard to take Malay people who think they know Japanese seriously.
Although it's not always the Malay people, you have to admit... Malay + studying Japanese = total HAHA for you.

Look everywhere.
They're misusing the word "aishiteru". They twitify English, and they do the same to Japanese. What the fck man! Aiishiiteruueeemfdsvnbjkbdj! Japanese's not my language, but I definitely have a great deal of respect for it. Their names or whatever would be like ”愛してる！” and when asked how to read, they say it's "aishiteru", which is right. And they say it means "I love you". Which is also right. But I can bet you they know fck about reading it.

Do you think they know that 愛 = ai し = shi て = te る = ru?
I'm telling you, it sucks man. Or they go to some person's profile and send a comment saying "buaiibuaii muackzs aiishiiteruu!" FUCKSIALZ MUNTAH LASER.

And what's with the whole シ and ツ thing behind their names.
For example: xiaobeiibieex シ
Yes, it does look like a smiley face, but that is so not... a smiley face.
It's katakana for "shi" and "tsu" respectively. I probably shouldn't make a big deal out of this, but I am because I'm annoyed, AND ALSO BECAUSE IT'S A LANGUAGE I ADMIRE.

And thanks to all these people, someone as innocent as me, sincere in wanting to learn the language, who has at least some knowledge on how to read the language, gets dragged into the WAPANESE category. Fuck man, fuck.

People who come ot my blog probably think I'm Wapanese too. I mean, the blog title, the front and all. It's in Jap, you're probably like "EEE SO CHEENA." I gotta admit it does look kinda cheena, but whatever.

Just know that I'm studying Japanese.
I'm not a wapanese.
I don't think I'm kawaii,
AND I KNOW MORE JAPANESE THAN THOSE SHITHEADS.

I don't know much, AT LEAST MORE.

And another thing that I'm annoyed about is the fact that people don't like others calling them what they call themselves. You probably didn't understand that, because I didn't either. But it basically means... like... someone names themselves "Mr Bastard", so I go up to that person and say "HI BASTARD!" I can bet you the person is gonna beat my upside the head. Or someone calls themselves... "Ms Ugly Monsterr." and I call them hideous, I'm gonna earn myself some new Minah enemies, buddy!

Pssht.

2008-10-17T01:27:00.003+08:00

We had fire in our eyes in the beginning.
I never felt so alive in the beginning.
We had time on our side in the beginning.
We had nothing to hide in the beginning.

I don't want to hear it anymore.

I SWEAR I NEVER MEANT TO LET IT DIE.
I JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU ANYMORE.

IT'S NOT FAIR WHEN YOU SAID THAT I DIDN'T TRY.
I JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU ANYMORE.

SO FUCK OFF.

2008-10-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

CHANGED MY BLOG BANNER FROM

TO

2008-10-16T20:41:00.002+08:00

Atiqah. } says:
"listen [censored], i know you're not that intellectually inclined, so i'm gonna be nice and slow to you okay?"
Atiqah. } says:
"iiiiiiii doooooont liiiiiike youuuuuuuuuuu * makes hand gestures at the same time to ensure that he understands"
sfqomhz says:
IF HE DISTURBS ME
sfqomhz says:
im gonna keep quiet ((:>
sfqomhz says:
AND WHEN HE FORCES TO ME TO SAY SOMETHING
sfqomhz says:
im gonna look him in the eye, and say loudly so the everyone hears me
sfqomhz says:
FUCK. OFF.

WE THE FUCKING BEST.

2008-10-16T19:02:00.000+08:00

You Are 80% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High

You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.

You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

WON YA JAINI.

2008-10-16T18:46:00.003+08:00

SUFFERING. SO. BADLY.
But yea, never mind. I got Raaiqa the day off. SHE HAS TO BE FOREVER GRATEFUL.
So I wasted like half my day sleeping. Not that I mind, but it feels like I wasted my day.
Noooooooo :( Come to think of it though, it was nice resting <3

I ISCH SHAVING UP FER MAGAZHEEEEN. (shaving up, ew ew ew)
No matter what you say, THE MONEY STAYS, the magazine comeeeeessss.

2008-10-15T16:40:00.001+08:00

Atiqah. } says:
i went to see the doctor just now
Atiqah. } says:
and he thought i was pregnant
Atiqah. } says:
-.-

DOCTORS NEVER LIE.
WIFEY IS PREGGERS.

2008-10-15T02:54:00.002+08:00

Okay, I just noticed how this blog looks so CHEENA, despite the fact that it's supposed to be in JAPANESE. I think it's because of all the kanji. But just so people know, I am not turning into a wapanese. I am, currently, in fact learning the damn Japanese language, and everything I put here, I understand, okay? I'm not those "OH LOOKIE I IZ SO KAWAII" type of girls. I'm serious in wanting to learn the language.

For those who want to know, my newest blog title,
不眠症の眠り姫, means
Sleeping Beauty of Insomnia

Not trying to say that I'm a beauty (I'm far from that in fact, I think you should notice), but because the insomnia part reminds me of me. I don't sleep at night because when I'm bored, I suffer from insomnia. Not really, I enjoy every moment of it. And I sleep during the day, so yea, sleeping... beauty, whatever.

However, I'm not too sure whether it's...
眠り＋姫 OR 眠り姫
One is two separate words, making it Sleeping Princess, the other meaning Sleeping Beauty, as in, the fairytale. I could be wrong, I don't know, TAL, HALP ME?

2008-10-15T02:34:00.002+08:00

I'm lying, but I shall not let anyone know.
No. No. I shall not be in this, I shall not do it.
I will grab this out from my throat, from my soul if I can, and keep it in a bottle and bury it somewhere. It's not true, I'm sure it's not. My mind is deceiving me. My heart is playing tricks on me. Hahahaha, hahahaha... hahaha... ha... DAMMIT.

But you know, THIS is true.
No matter how many times I try, it's just always there.
I can't. I thought you said I could? You lied.
Liar, liar, liar, liar.
Blame the fact that you're too special to me, you stupid MAN.
You're not even a boy anymore. Go marry someone quick so I can forget you :)

Ooooooh, and one more thing.

I still am committing my life to Miyavi, shitheads.
DON'T LAUGH ASSHOLES, you don't know anything.

2008-10-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS FUN GILER BABI
♥ nini nyrah!

2008-10-13T22:31:00.002+08:00

Because more than anyone else in this world,
I realized I wanted to protect you.
In a little while longer I'll disappear but still I never want to let you go.

2008-10-13T22:02:00.002+08:00

Redemption

Your figure silently climbs back to the heavens.
Fixed upon it, I watched it until my tears became dry.
Sadness overtaking me, leaving an everlasting mark.
I swore that I would never forget.

I'll spread my broken wings and eliminate everything,
Until the world comes to it's final day.

My hands shaking, tracing over my red tears.
Fleeting memories falling into the darkness.
The last time fades as quickly as it appears.
Hints of their warmth left behind.

If it is words of compassion, they can't save me.
The only sacrifice I can make in this never-endin battle is myself.

Someday we shall all return to the heavens.
Farewells are unnecessary.

2008-10-13T19:29:00.001+08:00

He changed my life,
He cleaned me up,
He found my heart,
like only _ _ _ _ _ _ can.

*insert big smiley face here*

2008-10-13T02:14:00.003+08:00

Define Miyavi.
A true musician.

Yes, and this goes out to many people out there, do not tell me Miyavi is no good. You have no idea, you have not done any research. Do not judge him by his looks and call him gay, because he is not. Do not think his music is senseless when you have not heard shit. He is a true musician, a talented performer and a passionate entertainer.

You can't say he sucks, because he's been around in the music industry for 9 years and have done and achieved a lot. He has a lot of talent that can bring him very far, or in the least, get him written down in history for the future generations to know. If he really did suck, his career would have just ended after Due Le Quartz, but no, he went ahead to pursue his dreams, and unlike many artists that die out after a certain period of time, Miyavi stays.

He's very expressive, thus his crazy looks. But that in no way makes him a gay man. He has ventured many styles, genres and different types of music, instruments. You name it. He is an all-rounder who DESERVES YOUR RESPECT, because he is more talented than you'll ever be in the long run. His music all have a certain special message behind it, and once it captures your heart, it's there forever, like what has happened to me. YA RIGHT, LAUGH -.-

He can be called a one-man band if you want, because he's known for doing one-man shows, where all instruments are played by him. His live performances are great beyond words, and his ability to ROCK THE FUCKING GUITAR proves that he's talented. Heck, even my dad says so, and my dad's an artiste, and he knows a talented person when he sees one.

Ah, shit man, I don't know what else to say.
No one will listen anyway.
NO ONE, so just go and continue talking shit about the man who changed my fucking life and make me cry. "He doesn't know, why are you such a fanatic anyway..." Yeah right, everyone says that. You people don't understand. You people never will. He doesn't know me, he doesn't know he changed my life, he doesn't know this, he doesn't know that. Which is why the least I can do for him is keep his good name and keep you all from insulting him.

AAAARRRGGGGHHHH.

2008-10-13T01:57:00.003+08:00

Hit the load, Jack.
Don't come back no mo, no mo, no mo.
Hit the load, Jack.
Don't chu come back no mo.

Hit the load, Jack.
Don't come back no mo, no mo, no mo.
Hit the load, Jack.
Don't chu come back no mo.

Ah woman, ey woman, dontchu be so mean.
Wey saw watermelon I ever seen
Yes if you say so-o
I hab my zings and go

Now baby, cry bebe, donchu gris kiss me
I'll be back on my feet someday
Yes if you say so-o
I hab my zings and go

GOD, YOUR ENGLISH SUCKS AND IT'S SO CUTE (!?!?!?!?!??!!)
I'm weird, now slap me.

2008-10-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

Okay seriously, people can never know how much Miyavi means to me :(
I can't even explain, and I know you people are laughing at that fact too.
Aaaaaaah. Why can't they understand.

2008-10-11T23:36:00.001+08:00

KHAIRUL CAME ONLINE = AQILAH FARTED
hehehehehehehehehhejhfjdsvbbjdfbvvdfsvlfdkv

2008-10-11T21:05:00.001+08:00

Thanks to teh great Aiman, I found SCANS to the Arena37c Special with Miyavi and 2 other guys at the front. I FOUND EEEET. And to think he found it to support his claims of Miyavi being pretty and not handsome, but I won anyway, so VICTORY IS MINE.

I iz so glad.
I wantz B-pass.

2008-10-11T19:08:00.002+08:00

Scorpio; and with the people I know, this is what I find true.
And also some which I wonder whether is true, thus ends with a (?)

Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. (?)

In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous.

They sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.

Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions.

They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. (?)

Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency. (!!?!?!?!)

They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average.

Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. (!?!?)

Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. (!?!?!?!?!?>MCJKSBCHJDV)

2008-10-11T16:58:00.002+08:00

踏みにじられたってむしりとられったって咲き誇ってりゃいい
If you're trampled on, If you're pulled out, You should bloom proudly,
信じ続ければいい雨降んなくっても日が当たんなくっても
You should keep on believing. Even it it doesn't rain, Even if the sun doesn't shine on you,
涼しい顔して知らん顔してさ道に迷ったって誰かに聞けばいい
Act cool, Act like you don't care. If you're lost, you should ask someone.
夢見失ったってまた目を閉じればいい
If you've lost sight of your dreams,You should close your eyes again.
そしていつかまた咲いてやるのさ大きく手を広げて
And someday, again it'll open up for you. Spread your arms wide.

2008-10-11T03:20:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I just find it so funny how Miyavi's cap is so low in 2 Be Wiz U.
HE HAS HIS NOSE IN THE AIR TO LOOK AT PEOPLE XD

2008-10-11T02:04:00.001+08:00

僕は何して上げれたのだろう？何してあげれんかったのだろう？
But whatever. I don't owe you my life. You don't OWN my life.
And omgomgomg Neo Visualizm is too beautiful.

2008-10-10T23:07:00.001+08:00

I do not really believe in horoscopes, but I have to admit that sometimes, they do say a lot and are quite true. Virgoans, so far as I know, are myself, Miyavi and Bill.
Speaking of Miyavi and Bill, it brings to mind this:

Both sexes have considerable charm and dignity, which make some male Virgoans appear effeminate when they are not.

See. THEY ARE NOT. Hmph, take that.

2008-10-10T22:53:00.002+08:00

THE VIRGIN
August 23 - September 23

Modest and shy
Meticulous and reliable
Practical and diligent
Intelligent and analytical

Fussy and a worrier
Overcritical and harsh
Perfectionist and conservative

Virgo is the only zodiacal sign represented by a female. It is sometimes thought of as a potentially creative girl, delicately lovely; sometimes as a somewhat older woman, intelligent but rather pedantic and spinsterish. The latter impression is sometimes confirmed by the Virgoan preciseness, refinement, fastidious love of cleanliness, hygiene and good order, conventionality and aristocratic attitude of reserve. They are usually observant, shrewd, critically inclined, judicious, patient, practical supporters of the status quo, and tend toward conservatism in all departments of life. On the surface they are emotionally cold, and sometimes this goes deeper, for their habit of suppressing their natural kindness may in the end cause it to atrophy, with the result that they shrink from committing themselves to friendship, make few relationships, and those they do make they are careful to keep superficial.

But the outward lack of feeling may, in some individuals born under this sign, conceal too much emotion, to which they are afraid of giving way because they do not trust others, nor do they have confidence in themselves and their judgments. This is because they are conscious of certain shortcomings in themselves of worldliness, of practicality, of sophistication and of outgoingness. So they bring the art of self concealment to a high pitch, hiding their apprehensiveness about themselves and their often considerable sympathy with other people under a mantle of matter-of-factness and undemonstrative, quiet reserve. They are still waters that run deep. Yet in their unassuming, outwardly cheerful and agreeable fashion, they can be sensible, discreet, well spoken, wise and witty, with a good understanding of other people's problems which they can tackle with a practicality not always evident in their own personal relationships.

Both sexes have considerable charm and dignity, which make some male Virgoans appear effeminate when they are not. In marriage they can be genuinely affectionate, making good spouses and parents, but their love making is a perfection of technique rather than the expression of desire, and they must be careful not to mate with a partner whose sex drive requires a passion they cannot match.

They are intellectually enquiring, methodical and logical, studious and teachable. They combine mental ingenuity with the ability to produce a clear analysis of the most complicated problems. They have an excellent eye for detail but they may be so meticulous that they neglect larger issues. Also, although they are realists, they may slow down projects by being too exact.
They are practical with their hands, good technicians and have genuine inventive talents, Thoroughness, hard work and conscientiousness are their hallmarks, and they are such perfectionists that, if things go wrong, they are easily discouraged. Because of their ability to see every angle of a many-sided question, they are unhappy with abstract theorizing. Appreciating the many different points of view as they do, they find philosophical concepts difficult, and they vacillate and have no confidence in any conclusions at which they arrive.

With these qualities, they are better as subordinates than leaders. Responsibility irks them and they often lack the breadth of strategic vision that a leader needs Virgoans are essentially tacticians, admirable in the attainment of limited objectives. Their self distrust is something they project on to other people and tends to make them exacting employers, though in the demands they make on those under them they temper this attitude with justice. They have potential abilities in the arts, sciences and languages. Language especially they use correctly, clearly, consciously and formally, as grammarians and etymologists rather than for literary interests, yet they are likely to have a good memory for apt quotations. Although they are well suited for careers in machine drawing, surveying and similar occupations, they are better fitted for a job in a library or office than a workshop.

Their minds are such that they need the stimulus of practical problems to be solved rather than the mere routine or working to set specifications that need no thought. They are careful with money and their interest in statistics makes them excellent bookkeepers and accountants. They also make good editors, physicists and analytical chemists. They may also find success as welfare workers, ministering to those less fortunate than themselves. They can be doctors, nurses, psychologists, teachers, confidential secretaries, technologists, inspectors, musicians, critics, public speakers and writers especially of reference works such as dictionaries and encyclopedias. Both sexes have a deep interest in history, a feature recognized by astrological authorities for at least two hundred years. If they go in for a business career their shrewdness and analytical ingenuity could tempt them into dishonesty, though they usually have enough moral sense to resist temptation. Female Virgoans may find a career in fashion, for they have a flair for dress, in which they can be trend setters. In any profession they choose the natives of this sign readily assimilate new ideas, but always with caution, conserving what they consider worth keeping from the past. They love country life but are unlikely to make good farmers, unless they can contrive to carry out their work without outraging their sense of hygiene and cleanliness.

Their faults, as is usual with all zodiacal types, are the extremes of their virtues. Fastidious reticence and modesty become old-maidishness and persnicketiness; balanced criticism becomes carping and nagging; and concern for detail becomes overspecialization. Virgoans are liable to indecision in wider issues and this can become chronic, turning molehills of minor difficulties into Himalayas of crisis. Their prudence can become guile and their carefulness, turned in on themselves, can produce worriers and hypochondriacs.

Problem: Finding yourself frequently alone and unable to keep friends for more than a few weeks.
Solution: Try not to be argumentative over much and the constant criticism that Virgos give to their companions are not endearing qualities to have. Try to live and let live, they will love you for it.

Problem: Dissatisfied with the way your life is turning out; no excitement or change to speak of.
Solution: You may be restricting yourself by reducing your life to a set of theories and pigeon-holes. Try to express the positive by first asking yourself, Who or what are you serving; are you devoted or are you enslaved. Answer those questions and then start a new path that includes your true worth.

Problem: You may feel that your life and your climb to success is a steep hill that you may never be able to scale.
Solution: Try expressing the positive traits of your finely tuned analytical reasoning, employing the light touch with employees and coworkers, while expressing genuine concern for all; You will find those mountains turning into hills that you run right over.

2008-10-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

Super mad skillz yo! Watchhhh, my guitar hero ♥

2008-10-10T20:29:00.001+08:00

I demand you people to WATCH this video! Not because it's Miyavi and he's damn sexy in it okay, but because the translations to this video is... wonderful. I love what this song says. I loved the song before, now I love it even more, because the message is so INSPIRATIONAL. Miyavi's my damn lifesaver.

Not my favourite vid, but the song definitely is one of my faves.

2008-10-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

2008-10-09T21:32:00.001+08:00

YOU HARDLY EVEN KNEW ME.

2008-10-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

[ r a z e r ] 止水 says:
people like you probably dont exist in malaysia at a young age
sfqomhz says:
what you mean
[ r a z e r ] 止水 says:
you are a fiercely independent person and you take trust to another level most kids dont understand

2008-10-09T20:39:00.001+08:00

THE 3 PREREQUISITES OF MINAHISM

1) Minahs will feel naked without make up. They can be totally stark nude and feel comfortable with it .. but without make up theyre like .. clothes less
2) Minahs will never be caught dead wearing less than "fashionable" stuffs. Part of their wardrobe MUST include something white, black or something from Mango
3) Minahs will never move in society alone, they always travel in packs and every pack will have an alpha minah who is supposedly the most popular or the hottest of the lot. They will never acknowledge anyone else that looks better than them and most importantly will take absolute offence if someone calls them Minah.

2008-10-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

"Fuck all that dwelling on the past shit.
I will walk with my bare feet even on thorny roads."

－雅

2008-10-08T15:16:00.002+08:00

AWESOME SHIRT!
Never thought someone would trace Miyavi's face to make a shirt of his own, AND SELL IT.
I'm kinda glad, and pissed at the same time, because come awwwwn, give the man some credit.

Anywayssss.

I WANT ALL THESE.

2008-10-08T14:23:00.002+08:00

I deserve my freedom.
You used to deserve my attention, but now you're begging for more.
You're unworthy of it, and I don't have all the time in the world to entertain you.
I have a life. You may not have it, but I do and please stop disturbing me.
What I am doing may not be of any good use, but it's MUCH better than senseless babbling through SMS.
Let me save the damn credit, okay. Anything, talk to me in school, or just freaking call me.
I have other things to do than to talk shit with you.

2008-10-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

I am purposely writing this because I want my brother to wait longer in order to use the laptop. LOOK, he defied me and just said "cepat". So now, I shall go on and blabber shit just to irritate him. It's now 1 am in the morning and I can't sleep because I can say I slept for almost the whole day today. Iskandar is now singing "LALALALA" with a voice of a raving rabbit xD

HE'S CRAZY OVER THE "PROJECTOR" AND IS NOW COVERING HIS HEAD WITH MY BLANKET AND HE LOOKS SO.. SCARY. He's so vjkbjdkf no wonder I am crazy. YAY I LUFFLES MY FAMILY.

Okay, back to senseless babbling. Omg tomorrow I has to go to school so unfortunate la i wanna stay at home and sleep all day because its what i do best other than drawing and making people frustrated furthermore theres nothing i do in school and i hate school i mean if it was school in singapore then i dont mind going everyday even though ms ng will kick my ass each time for not doing homework but at least i get to meet my bebehs over there i dont even see my bebehs here which is a very sad fact and everyone knows how much i love my bebehs and then theres also the teachers there that are damn nice like din and li eng although sometimes she can be such an NLB HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHJCBSHBVHJBSHJBVJHBSVHJBSHJV but shes a really nice teacher and i love her to bits.

Yay, fullstop :D But I shall not stop because Iskandar has to wait longer.
SEE, HE JUST SAID "EH".
D:< He's gonna piss on my grandmother's bed if I don't let him use the computer.
I CAN HEAR HIM CRYING OH NUUUUU.

Lies, okay never mind, bai.
I iz a follower of Bobo.
BOBO THE MONKEY!

2008-10-08T00:54:00.001+08:00

I'm the craziest monkey in the Caspian sea,
BOBO IS MY NAME.
I have sex with primitive apes and say,
BOBO IS MY NAME.
I swing from tree to tree and say,
BOBO IS MY NAAAAAME.
♥ mini, i mizzus youzzxzszx.

2008-10-07T16:03:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL THE POSTER'S NO MO T^T
NUUUU, MY.... ONE... AND... ONLYYYYY....
That's it. Must... get... magazine...

2008-10-07T15:55:00.002+08:00

I honestly cannot care anymore...
I'm sorry. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Anyyyyyways, I didn't go to school today to get some rest. I'm tired as fuck and I don't know why. And yea, here I am in front of the computer. There's nothing else to do. Maybe I'll go watch an MCR DVD and then go to sleep or something. Aaaah.

All this Miyavi-lovin' has taken a toll on me.
I'm such a loser.

2008-10-07T00:22:00.002+08:00

ただ僕はずっと愛してた
Miyavi, ♥

2008-10-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

I was born in Japan, but actually I'm half Korean. I'm playing music as a Japanese artist. My music is listened to by everybody. I'll never stop being a musician as long as you're there. And I sing all over the world. I'm learning a lot, including English. I want everybody to know about the Japanese culture, and that is why I play music. But that's a selfish reason. Aside from that, it makes me happy when everybody gets my music. It's cool if my music is used as a chance to learn about Japan. Also I want to give my fans a chance to get to know each other through my shows. I'll just do what I can do. So I will brush up on my style. No matter how far away you are, I can pass along my music at the speed of light. So please, support me.

Forever ♥

2008-10-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

Qitot to Shafiqah: *clap clap whistle throws confetti and streamers in the jamban*

YAY HAHAHAHAHA

2008-10-06T21:12:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE GREAT TEACHER DIN. ♥

He's my teacher, MY TEACHER FOR LIFE. Yay, I luffles him.
FOR MORE INFO, PLEASE VISIT screw your shits @ vox
Someone has turned a year oldeeeer *wiggles eyebrows*

2008-10-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

HELL YEAAAAAAA.

And Miyavi made me cry yet again.
Bad bad bad boy ):

2008-10-05T07:26:00.000+08:00

2008-10-04T19:00:00.000+08:00

I am so so so so so so darn happy right now!!!!
GUESS WHAT I GOT MANZ. GUESS WHAT.
I can't belive they had this. IT WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT I SAW.

HELL YEA I LOVE IT MAN.

They also had another DVD there, I think it was Miyavi's 25th Anniversary one.

OKAY NEVER MIND GOING TO WATCH IT :D

2008-10-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

There iz peepulz stalking mai blog.

HAHAHAHA. Okay anyways, now at Amimah's house, and there's actually noooo internet connection, but I'm using someone else's connection. Ah, who cares. The person was dumb enough to not make it secured. Connection sucks though, but better than nothing.

Today was kinda fun. I went back to Anderson! <333 I met my bebehs and OH GOD I MISS THEM SO MUCH. The indoor sports hall is ready, but not opened yet. It looks AMAZING. Din gave me a cicak and Rm10. AWWWW, babat so sweet HAHA. It was a super belated birthday present. I shall pose and take pictures with the cicak because Din says I can do so.

I wanna go out tomorrow with them too, but it's like... raya, and plans are haywire. I don't even know whether I am going out with them. All I know for sure, I have stuff to buy. Yes, I DOOOOO. There's... webcam, album, magazine, DVD and God knows who else. Not good to splurge, but I have friggin money in front of my eyes, and I'm not one to sit and keep.

Kay, gots to go.
Because I don't know what else to say.
Bai~

2008-10-01T12:53:00.000+08:00

"I've always hated myself for not being able to do anything,
but now, I never hesitate to say, don't lose to life.
Be strong, and..
GA N BA RE."