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I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
shafiqah othman.
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MIYAVI, my hero.He changed my life, he cleaned me up, he found my heart like only HE can. He made me discover myself, he's my drive, my inspiration, my voice, my soul, my song, my heart, my hero. ♥ I don't think I can ever have built a passion and found a dream if I had never found him. He makes my day each time, and every song he has written is etched in my mind, my heart and my soul. I am very protective of this man because I don't like people making fun of whoever it is that has left an impact in my life. He is all I need right now to keep me going to achieve my dreams. And don't be jealous that a guy in magenta nail polish can get more chicks than you.
GERARD WAY, the first.
He is undeniably an awesome person with a wonderful personality. He is always all-smiles and not forgetting he has a lovely smile. Whoever fails to love this man fails so much, because they are definitely blind. I knew him before I knew Miyavi, and he did the first few jobs to straightening my life out before handing it all over to him. He got married to someone else already, but I am happy for him, of course I am (: He has been the bestest there is for the past 2 years I was obsessed over him.
BILL KAULITZ, my porcupine.Bill makes awesome music and he, although young, is very talented and expressive. Miyavi is more expressive than he is, but hey! Bill just turned 19, and he definitely has a long way to go. He earned success through hard work and diligence, and for that, I love him to bits. He hasn't really done anything to change my life, but he's wonderful nonetheless. And yes, it's a he. A guy who happens to have long hair so you people think he's a girl. A guy whose face is effeminate and prettier than all you other guys out there. You're just jealous that a guy in black nailpolish can earn more chicks than you, just like Miyavi.
WILLIAM BECKETT, my laughing gas.
He's cute, I know. He's funny, even more. He's tall, has a great smile, wonderful personality, great sense of humor, wonderful singing voice, he's so... wow. I am not in love with him, but I pretty much look up to him and his group of friends, which includes oddities like Chislett, Mike Carden, Sisky and The Butcher to always make me feel better on days I'm feeling quite blue. They never fail to slap a smile onto my face because they are awesome and funny like that. Whoever has not seen these guys in action, but go and watch them ASAP because they. are. the. shiz. Great humourous bunch of people, who make awesome music as well. Who can't possibly love them!?
JOE JONAS, satisfaction
People who know me well, know damn well I do not like this guy. I don't even like him now, I'm just in this for the thrill. So yea, I don't hate him as much as I used to, but I don't like him much either. But, I'll have you know he's a damn good kisser and I should know, yes, I should know. And his saliva tastes like cherry/mint. No, don't even ask. Oooo, scandalous. And I just thought that after everything that happened, he deserved at least a mention for satisfying my lust.
People who know me well, know damn well I do not like this guy. I don't even like him now, I'm just in this for the thrill. So yea, I don't hate him as much as I used to, but I don't like him much either. But, I'll have you know he's a damn good kisser and I should know, yes, I should know. And his saliva tastes like cherry/mint. No, don't even ask. Oooo, scandalous. And I just thought that after everything that happened, he deserved at least a mention for satisfying my lust.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Sorry for the long and irrelevant post. You don't really have to read from here on if you don't want to.
I've been having these ideas on my mind for such a long time, it's driving me crazy. I just need to write my ideas down here so that I'll feel much better. Need to be organized, you know? Miyavi-san's songs gives me a lot of inspiration, and I would like to be able to draw out those inspirations. But there's so much detailing in the background, and colours. I need it to be... wonderful. Heck, I even gave those artworks a name already, and been thinking about how it'll look like.
In order of "wanting-to-do-ness". I don't know a word for it, so yea ><
PMNB Project
[Papa Mama Nozomarenu Baby Project]
Which means "Papa Mama Unwanted Baby". I love this song for many reasons. For this artwork, I'd like to find a photo of Miyavi-san screaming [might need some help for this] and then improvise on the hair and make it into back when he had his rainbow mohawk, since when this song was released, that was his hair, and it's the only image I had in my mind. There's going to be a big "MOU II YO" which means "IT'S ENOUGH" by the side. The background and the whole feel to this work is going to be fiery, filled with angst, regret and many more. I have a lot of ideas for this, so I can't wait to get started.
Papa Mama [Nozomarenu Baby] Song
The part of the song that gave the most impact on me was:
Papa, Mama, Ojiichan, Oneechan...Gomen ne, gomen ne.
Sensei, Tonari no Obachan, Taroukun, hontou ni gomen ne?
and also:
Mou iiyo... mou iiyo ttara.
Yamete yo, hottoite yo, kamawanai deyo
Which translates to:
Papa, Mama, Grandpa, Big sis.... I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Teacher, Lady next door, Tarou, I'm really sorry?
and
It's enough... It's enough I said...
Stop it, leave me alone, don't bother me.
The way he sings it is just... awesome, you know? Has a lot of feeling in it. I like. Just listen to the song and you'll know. It's in the beginning, so you don't have to listen to the whole song.
Next in line is the:
HNHSTKBDSM Project
[Hi No Hikari Sae Todokanai Kono Basho De Sora Miageta Project]
I know the title is really long, but this song is really very wonderful. The original title does does not include the "Sora Miageta" though. It means "From this place where even the light of the sun doesn’t reach, I look up at the sky". This song gives out a feeling of hope, and never to give up. The music video shows a torn down and deserted place, but there's Miyavi walking on. I simply love the feel to this song. The beginning, he sounds so hopeless, like he's going to die, and the next, when the guitars and the drums and everything kick in, everything becomes very hyped, full of energy and very alive. You see him walking on with this very determined look on his face. Playing his guitar, singing and screaming like he has never before. I love this PV a lot.
Hi No Hikari Sae Todokanai Kono Basho De Music Video
I love every part of the song, but especially this part:
tatoe moshi zetsubou shika nakatta to shite mo
sono mukou ni wa yume ya kibou ga
kirei koto de mo ii kara aru to shinjitetai ne
michishirube wa nai kedo mou jibun de tsukureru kara
metsumutta mama de mo mimi wo sumashite aruiteikeru sa
Which translates to:
Even if I had nothing but despair
I want to believe that there are dreams and hope,
or even something beautiful on the other side
Though there is no guide, I can just make it myself
Even with my eyes closed, I can listen carefully and walk on
Simply very beautiful lyrics. Every part of the song is worth mentioning here, but I think I'll post links to make things easier.
Romaji Lyrics | Translation
There are many other artworks that Miyavi-san's songs have inspired me to do, but these 2 are the ones that I really want to get done. I can sense a really beautiful outcome. Once these 2 are done, I can fuss my head over the many others I want to do, which includes a sketch of dearest, a re-sketch of Khairul, a sketch of my bebehs and putting them together as a portrait, a sketch of the Kavki Boiz. Aaaahhh, really. I may be small, but I have big dreams. I would so make a "Tsurezure Naru Hibi Naredo" artwork, but only after I find out the real meaning behind the song. The song is very very beautiful. I love it.
I know this is very ridiculous, but I am planning to really get into these artworks once I get my Wacom Cintiq. I don't know when I will get it, but hopefully not too late. I am wishing to be able to send in an artwork to Miyavi for his 28th birthday, which is next year. And if it reaches him, that'll be one of my best birthday presents which is exactly the next day. But for now, I am drafting my sketches on paper, which kinda looks like crap now, cause most of the time I don't have a reference with me. The image in my head is still clear though. It's going to end like that, I promised myself.
And all these will be placed into my portfolio, and I am going to make sure these artworks bring me somewhere. As stupid and fangirly it may seem, it would really be a pleasure for me if I could design a CD cover of Miyavi one day. You must be wondering whether I have forgotten about my other favourite bands, which are My Chemical Romance, Tokio Hotel and The Academy Is. Truth is, I haven't, but the reason why I want to be able to work alongside Miyavi is simple: Neo Visualizm. Drawing, Japanese floral patterns, bright and colourful designs and to top it all off, a baffling character. Just what I need to keep my life full of adrenaline.
But I'm just hoping that my parents will understand where I want to take myself. Malaysia just isn't the place to manage to achieve all this, perhaps not even Singapore. I'm aiming maybe somewhere in the Europe? That's gonna be many years down the road, I know, but I am planning all these right now. It feels so good to finally have my life on track, to have sorted out my future. Not saying that this is definite, but hopefully it is, cause really, this is where my passion lies. Graphic arts, graphic designs. I really want to be able to do this for the rest of my life. It's something I really enjoy.
Haha, it's funny reading all this. I sound like I'm some expert, veteran of some sort. I am not, but I'm trying my best to be good at what I enjoy doing. "You have talent, pursue that talent" was what my father once told me. I want to pursue it right now, can't you see? I can't stop thinking about this every night. I pray and I hope I will get to achieve what I want.
Insya'Allah.
I've been having these ideas on my mind for such a long time, it's driving me crazy. I just need to write my ideas down here so that I'll feel much better. Need to be organized, you know? Miyavi-san's songs gives me a lot of inspiration, and I would like to be able to draw out those inspirations. But there's so much detailing in the background, and colours. I need it to be... wonderful. Heck, I even gave those artworks a name already, and been thinking about how it'll look like.
In order of "wanting-to-do-ness". I don't know a word for it, so yea ><
PMNB Project
[Papa Mama Nozomarenu Baby Project]
Which means "Papa Mama Unwanted Baby". I love this song for many reasons. For this artwork, I'd like to find a photo of Miyavi-san screaming [might need some help for this] and then improvise on the hair and make it into back when he had his rainbow mohawk, since when this song was released, that was his hair, and it's the only image I had in my mind. There's going to be a big "MOU II YO" which means "IT'S ENOUGH" by the side. The background and the whole feel to this work is going to be fiery, filled with angst, regret and many more. I have a lot of ideas for this, so I can't wait to get started.
Papa Mama [Nozomarenu Baby] Song
The part of the song that gave the most impact on me was:
Papa, Mama, Ojiichan, Oneechan...Gomen ne, gomen ne.
Sensei, Tonari no Obachan, Taroukun, hontou ni gomen ne?
and also:
Mou iiyo... mou iiyo ttara.
Yamete yo, hottoite yo, kamawanai deyo
Which translates to:
Papa, Mama, Grandpa, Big sis.... I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Teacher, Lady next door, Tarou, I'm really sorry?
and
It's enough... It's enough I said...
Stop it, leave me alone, don't bother me.
The way he sings it is just... awesome, you know? Has a lot of feeling in it. I like. Just listen to the song and you'll know. It's in the beginning, so you don't have to listen to the whole song.
Next in line is the:
HNHSTKBDSM Project
[Hi No Hikari Sae Todokanai Kono Basho De Sora Miageta Project]
I know the title is really long, but this song is really very wonderful. The original title does does not include the "Sora Miageta" though. It means "From this place where even the light of the sun doesn’t reach, I look up at the sky". This song gives out a feeling of hope, and never to give up. The music video shows a torn down and deserted place, but there's Miyavi walking on. I simply love the feel to this song. The beginning, he sounds so hopeless, like he's going to die, and the next, when the guitars and the drums and everything kick in, everything becomes very hyped, full of energy and very alive. You see him walking on with this very determined look on his face. Playing his guitar, singing and screaming like he has never before. I love this PV a lot.
Hi No Hikari Sae Todokanai Kono Basho De Music Video
I love every part of the song, but especially this part:
tatoe moshi zetsubou shika nakatta to shite mo
sono mukou ni wa yume ya kibou ga
kirei koto de mo ii kara aru to shinjitetai ne
michishirube wa nai kedo mou jibun de tsukureru kara
metsumutta mama de mo mimi wo sumashite aruiteikeru sa
Which translates to:
Even if I had nothing but despair
I want to believe that there are dreams and hope,
or even something beautiful on the other side
Though there is no guide, I can just make it myself
Even with my eyes closed, I can listen carefully and walk on
Simply very beautiful lyrics. Every part of the song is worth mentioning here, but I think I'll post links to make things easier.
Romaji Lyrics | Translation
There are many other artworks that Miyavi-san's songs have inspired me to do, but these 2 are the ones that I really want to get done. I can sense a really beautiful outcome. Once these 2 are done, I can fuss my head over the many others I want to do, which includes a sketch of dearest, a re-sketch of Khairul, a sketch of my bebehs and putting them together as a portrait, a sketch of the Kavki Boiz. Aaaahhh, really. I may be small, but I have big dreams. I would so make a "Tsurezure Naru Hibi Naredo" artwork, but only after I find out the real meaning behind the song. The song is very very beautiful. I love it.
I know this is very ridiculous, but I am planning to really get into these artworks once I get my Wacom Cintiq. I don't know when I will get it, but hopefully not too late. I am wishing to be able to send in an artwork to Miyavi for his 28th birthday, which is next year. And if it reaches him, that'll be one of my best birthday presents which is exactly the next day. But for now, I am drafting my sketches on paper, which kinda looks like crap now, cause most of the time I don't have a reference with me. The image in my head is still clear though. It's going to end like that, I promised myself.
And all these will be placed into my portfolio, and I am going to make sure these artworks bring me somewhere. As stupid and fangirly it may seem, it would really be a pleasure for me if I could design a CD cover of Miyavi one day. You must be wondering whether I have forgotten about my other favourite bands, which are My Chemical Romance, Tokio Hotel and The Academy Is. Truth is, I haven't, but the reason why I want to be able to work alongside Miyavi is simple: Neo Visualizm. Drawing, Japanese floral patterns, bright and colourful designs and to top it all off, a baffling character. Just what I need to keep my life full of adrenaline.
But I'm just hoping that my parents will understand where I want to take myself. Malaysia just isn't the place to manage to achieve all this, perhaps not even Singapore. I'm aiming maybe somewhere in the Europe? That's gonna be many years down the road, I know, but I am planning all these right now. It feels so good to finally have my life on track, to have sorted out my future. Not saying that this is definite, but hopefully it is, cause really, this is where my passion lies. Graphic arts, graphic designs. I really want to be able to do this for the rest of my life. It's something I really enjoy.
Haha, it's funny reading all this. I sound like I'm some expert, veteran of some sort. I am not, but I'm trying my best to be good at what I enjoy doing. "You have talent, pursue that talent" was what my father once told me. I want to pursue it right now, can't you see? I can't stop thinking about this every night. I pray and I hope I will get to achieve what I want.
Insya'Allah.
12:37 PM
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