"You are beautiful, but you are empty," he went on. "One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you--the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or ever sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose."

iloveyou, syg ♥

I actually have over 1000 photos of Myv-san to go through and make signatures/banners of, but being the lazy person I am, I stopped not even halfway through. Dayemn, I love making these stuff.

So anyways, it happened with my Bill Kaulitz signatures/banners, and I don't want the same thing to happen to my Myv-san ones. Learn from mistakes, you know? I DON'T WANT PEOPLE STEALING MY WORK VSDNVKLJSDVBA I have the original ones with me, but to post'em here, I added in copyright. HAHA IN YO FACE. No, really, I did.

Aaaaand, yea. That's about it. I placed my name on each photo. I have the ones WITHOUT the names though, but that's for meeee to keep.

These were the rubbish I came up with, because I am so bored.



They're very plain, I know. Unlike some of the really complexed ones I've done. But I think simple ones look quite neat and nice. Let me tell you though, those things look much better without my ugly name on it. No, serious. I think that copyright thing spoils the beauty of it all, but meh. I don't want it to get stolen again.

My personal favourites are actually numbers 3, 4, 7, 8 and 9.

Weehee.

I know right.
Myv-san overdose.

But that's what happens when you're a fangirl like meeeee.

So how, talent enough to become graphic artist?
Nah, maybe not. YET.
There's still loads of stuff I need to learn. I really love doing these stuff though. It soothes my mind, and makes me stressed at the same time.
Aaaaah, the love of editing.

Btw, every height was set to 150 px. Standard size for me. I like things small. The width musn't be too big either. Too long with a small height is ugh-glaye.

That's for signatures/banners, for all my other edits involving myself, standard height is 520 px. The length usually end up being 405 px too.

For avatars, which I haven't really developed a love for making yet, because I think it's too small for any detailed edits, size is usually 100 px by 100 px, unless the site I go to or the request I get says otherwise.

Shit, I'm too organized.

Speaking of which, I do have some other banners I did not long ago.

Um, yea. Myv-san too.

I already got comments from people that it's real pretty, so I thought no harm if I placed it here as well. But. I added in my name again xD

I love these 3 different renditions, you know. I can't bear to get them stolen.
-myv Normal
-myv Rainbow Head
-myv Peace

I changed my profile song to Myv-san's "Onpu no Tegami". I lavs the song k. So beautifuuuuul. And that bloody fanvideo along with such a sad song makes it look like some memorial for Myv-san, although he's well alive and kicking. SO EMOTIOOOOOOONAL. I liiiiike.

Anyways, I'm going on a signature/banner-making spree. Of Myv-san. I think I'll post'em up later.

WHAAAT?

Too much Myv-san?

Deal with it >:D

I don't know how, and I don't know why, I woke up at 6.30 am today. I checked my phone, and noticed an SMS from WIFEYYYYYYY ♥

All she said was "Beh?" and that was sent at 12.54 am. SORRY xDD

I ended up having a mini-conversation with her through SMS. Man, no idea why, but it was friggin fun. It was like... *pokes, giggles and runs away* with a combination of HEHEHEHEs and WE-ARE-AWESOMEs.

Then, I decided to go through stuff on my handphone. My memory card stopped working, and while desperately attempting to make it work again, I stumbled across many hidden stuff I've forgotten about in my phone memory.

Aaah, there were photos of my primary schoolmates. There was Joey, Suzann, Danial, Chai Jing, Elizabeth. And then there were photos of the whole Bebeh group back in the days.

HAHAHA LET ME TELL YOU, WE LOOK SO SLENG TO THE MAX ksndvlkjsndk
Aqilah with her specs, and her... hair. JAINI'S FRINGE. My hair was all haywire, and I wore specs. Aaaaah, those timeeeeeees. But to not humiliate any of us, I will not post photos. Nuh-uh.

Maybe one of these days, ya? HAHA.

Not trying to be egoistic, but compared to my early Sec 1 days, I LOOK SO FRIGGIN SEXY NOW. *eherm* Feels like 2 different people completely, you know? I even laughed at myself looking at those photos.

And after all those reminiscing, dearest sent me an SMS. iloveyouuuu♥
More reminiscing, CAUSE I MISS FRIDAY, SCHOOL AND SINGAPOREEEE.

Oh, did I ever talk about my outing to that clubhouse? The place was slightly boring, only because I did not choose to swim. SHOULD HAVE YOU KNOW. Raaiqa was having such a fun time, but sitting around with my mum, grandma and my aunt was fun enough. I don't know why, but it just was. Just... sitting... and... talking. You know?


And for the fun of it all, I think I wanna post pics I stumbled upon, but have never used it before. Until just recently I added a feeeeew on my Friendster.


Here's a photo I did trying to imitate someone I know. I won't mention who, but the photos looked so ridiculous, I just HAD to try to look like her xD Jaini and Atiqah went all "OMGWTF!?" because yea, kinda looks similar. ESPECIALLY THE POSE AND THE EYES AND THE MOUTH HAHAHAHA. But I shan't post a photo. I'm going to post, A LINK!
CLICK HEREEEEE, but let me tell you, it's horrendous xDD
Told you it was horrible.
*insert uncontrollable giggles here*

I officially declare "Onpu no Tegami" one of the most beautiful songs ever by Myv-san.
lovelovelovelovelove

"First, Last, Worst" Photo
This is the original photo. The photo I ad on my Friendster is too small.
Based off "When I Get Home, You're So Dead".

It's just a song kay.
I love you ♥

I went on a song fest. Aaah, memories.
Oh, click on the orange for the song.
Cause orange = link.

Mayday Parade - Jersey
Cause Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know I'm scared to death
That everything that you have to me was just
A lie until you left.

Mayday Parade - If You Wanted A Song Written About You
And I hope this makes you happy now,
That the flame we had is burning out.
I hope you like your pictures facing down,
As even broken hearts may have their doubts.

Mayday Parade - Miserable At Best
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess.
But I guess,
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best.

Mayday Parade - Three Cheers For Five Years
For heaven's sake, I know you're sorry.
But you won't stop crying.
This anniversary may never be the same.
Inside I hope you know I'm dying,
With my heart beside me.
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
And if I died right now,
You'd never be the same.

Mayday Parade - When I Get Home, You're So Dead
So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under.
Lipstick lullabies.
This is sorry for the last time.
And baby I understand that your making new friends,
This is how you get by.
The moral this time is;
Girls make boys cry.

Cobra Starship - The City Is At War
The city is at war,
It's play time for the young and rich.
Ignore me if you see me,
Cause I just don't give a shit.
The city is at war,
Bless the young and rich,
With designer drugs and designer friends.

Cobra Starship - Guilty Pleasure
I came here to make you dance tonight.
I don't care about my guilty pleasure for you.
Shut up, cause we won't stop.
We're getting down till the sun's coming up.

Cobra Starship - Send My Love To The Dancefloor
Hey Mr. DJ,
You gotta put a record on, yeah.
We're gonna bury this town tonight.
We're gonna dance all night.

Cobra Starship - Snakes On A Plane (Bring It)
So kiss me goodbye
Honey, I'm gonna make it out alive
So kiss me goodbye
I can see the venom in their eyes
Goodbye

The Academy Is... - Everything We Had
Everything we had,
Is no longer there.

The Academy Is... - The Phrase That Pays
Hold your head high, heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big,
Planning something big,
Planning.

The Academy Is... - Classifieds
Back down, cash out, that's the city for ya.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart.
I thought you meant that you were falling apart.

The Academy Is... - Sleeping With Giants
It's been a lifetime, a lifetime we waited for.
A simple question, kid, "are you with me or not at all?"

The Academy Is... - Same Blood
We are the same blood,
All of us.
We are. We are.
While half of us were lost
The other half forgot
We are the same blood.

The Academy Is... - Skeptics And True Believers
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.
And near death, last breath, and barely hanging on.
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?

The Academy Is... - Slow Down
Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
Hey you, who are you kidding?
I'm not like them. I won't buy in.
Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
Hey you, who are you kidding?
Don't quit 'til 47.
Then we'll turn it up, and we'll play a little faster.

The Academy Is... - Ghost
Well, there are fine lines I've seen we are stuck in between.
With separate eyes to use and throw aside.
How we die, nobody wants to know.
Who decides where everybody goes?
Where everybody goes...

I've got moar, but I think I'll post just these now.
OMG I LOVE MAYDAY, C*SHIP AND TAI.

2 particular people "in love" and a conversation with the GTD had got me thinking.

How do you know you're in love, and not just addicted?

This version of "Ossan Ossan Ore Nanbo" is WICKED. Yea, Tyko and his "trumpet", and who doesn't love a Myv snorting? I like how Myv moves like he's having fits. He can be such a tard at times, it's so cute, in a weird way. Eh look, he even shakes his ass in there!! mvnsdklnsf

I like how I memorized this song word for word.
Yea kay fine, cause it's the same words over and over again :D
This guy's live performances are so great. I don't know, watching it on YouTube gives me the "JEALOUSSSS MANZ" feeling. Not really shown here, but the way he moves while he plays his guitar, the jumping, twisting and jamming. Ah, cool cool.

Can't remember which, but I found an awesome awesome solo of Miyavi's guitar-playing.

Just in case you're wondering, "Ossan Ossan Ore Nanbo" means "Sir, Sir, how much do I cost?"
Which is awkward, cause while I was watching this performance, dearest suddenly said he'll paste a price tag on my face xD

I just listened to "As U R" and "Wake Up Honey" by Myv-san.
MADE OF AWESOME AND WIN <3

i.
miss.
youuu.
soooooo.
muuuuuchh.
sayaaaaaang.
♥

HAHAHAHAHAHA
Now, if you notice, I'm copying and pasting MSN convos.
Am bored k.

Atiqah. } says:
yeah im too afraid to go near to ugly beasts
Atiqah. } says:
what if i contract the disease of grotesque O_O

Steady ar baby xD

I wanna grind your nuts. I wanna slap your face. I wanna kick you all over and make sure to leave you by the side of the road and you DIE. The world does NOT revolve around you, asshole. NO IT DOESN'T. Stop acting like you;re the king, cause you're not. Have you looked at yourself in the mirror? What makes you think you're worthy of such attention?

Argh, fuckface.

Wait, did I mention that I want to strangle you so hard that you'll turn blue and that your nuts drop off?

Kay, now I did.

People who do not know anything about Jrock, Visual Kei, Visual Rock and Neo Visualizm should just stay away from the genre completely. Cause we don't need clueless smart-alecks like you to comment on how these people look "gay". We know they look feminine, we're not blind. It's part of their career, so stfu. They look androgynous, yea, so what. At least they're prettier than you.

It's the music. I'm sorry if you don't understand. if I thought the same way as you, I'd probably be hating Jrock like how I always have last time, only because of how they looked. But they make spectacular music [kay maybe Myv, am biased] so I start loving'em. Give them a break, damn it. Ah, whatever. It's not like they care.

I do though.

And trust me when I say they are not gay AT ALL. Everything's fanservice.
It's Jrock ffs.

It makes me squeal.

IT'S AN M-EFFIN' SIGNNNNNNNN.
yay yay myv yay yay myv yay yay


Who you calling "jantan tak elok" eh?
You make me cry ):

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Oh, you wouldn't want to know.
But I have people who'll chase after your ass, believe me darling xD

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
A dream? You mean just one? Sorry, I'm too greedy for just one.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
Oi, monkeyface.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Anything but give charity. I AM SELFISH OKAY T_T

5. What's your ideal lover like?
I don't have an ideal lover in mind because it makes loving someone hard.
Besides, I already have oneeee.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving. Who knows how the hell ugly the person who loves you can be -.-

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Until it's impossible.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I won't hope anymore. I just wish them all the best.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
My recent trip back to Singapore.

11. What takes you down the fastest?
I. Don't. Understand. Question.

12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Can't imagine. I'm too caught up with now.

13. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Family, bebehs, friends and you.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
You awesome HAHA.

15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Is this a trick question?

16. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Get off my bed. HAHA.

17. Would you give all in a relationship?
I would, if I could.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one I feel a deeper love to.

19. What type of people do you hate?
That particular dickhead. That guy with the face of a mouse and the nose of a tiger, and no it's not a compliment. Not only does your face look like shit, you have the attitude of an asshole to begin with too. Go suck donkey nuts. Yea, this hate is the real deal.


8 PEOPLE TO TAG:
Make me tag, betch.

I just came down to waching this again. Yes, am that bored.
Awesome manz. Funny shit. xD
I love Nigahiga.
I love'em, yea.

I think Ryan's sexy HAHA
In a weird way.
Ryan HIGA, not Ryan Almodiel kay D:

Okay, I'm such a loser, and I noticed that in the "Vote for Revo!!!" vid, they have their own NIGAHIGA shirts, and I think it's cool xD

Oh look, and in "The Super Secret" vid, instead of Sean wearing black and Ryan wearing white, they swapped.

EH MOVIE, COOL D:

cute

• Having a type of beauty that is mainly attributed to small or cuddly animals and youngsters
• Attractive or pretty especially in a childish, youthful, or delicate way

Check online dictionaries for the definition of cute, baby.
It's no longer "ugly but adorable" :D

theHOUSE

I'm putting the link there for reference next time.
Anyone want to try it now?

I FOUND THE FRIGGIN RING.
I FOUND MAH WEDDING RINGGGGGGGG.

Kay, so my mum found it.
But still.

I FOUND THE RINGGGGGGGGGG.

I seriously accidentally pressed "Album of The Day" button on my MP4 and this song started playing. Brings back memories about my old MCR-crazy days. I still love'em, don't get me wrong, but just recently I've discovered different musicians to obsess over. I love them all the same, just at different points of time, I obsess over different people. Kay, I don't know whether that made sense.

I love this song, really. The fact that it's soft and so... ARGH at the same time [note that ARGH is a good thing]. Aaaah, the good old days.

Someone I once admired and looked up to told me that.
You're wise, Khairul. Have to give you that.

Too bad not everyone "does not bear grudges".
It's a pity really.

The world needs less hate.
MOAR LOVE.

One of the most significant outings I've ever had. The jamming, the crying, the buying, the walking. Shafiq, Aswin, Aqilah, Zul, Atiqah, Danish and myself. It was wonderful.

I miss that time, that place.
I miss you.

Selfish Love indeed, ne? I love this song. No, not because I'm selfish or whatever, but I don't know. This song's just so addictive. Especially the part where Myv-san shouts while screaming, whatever it's called. Voice = so schmexaye.

Ooooh, yes and this is where my blog title "Aishitekure, aishiteru kara." came from. "Love me, because I love you".

Yessss, I love youuu.

This song is so... AWESOME MANZ.
I can listen to this on repeat for the rest of my life.

However, I still think that Mata Yume de Aimashou is greatest at portraying one-sided love. Well, that's one perspective. Another perspective is that the speaker's love can only be met in their dreams, since they're always so far away from each other.

I think I have a post on that song somewhere on this blog.

I could go on forever, but I think I should stop here.

Aishiteru <3

Beh, remember when you said you thought you were drunk because you were listening to this song?


Guess what?
You're not the only one. xD

Ooooh my loooove, my laliiiinggg.

Kay, so school started for MANY MANY, and I am very bored at home. Well, it's okay, I guess. Mine starts in one months' time, and I don't want to goooooo.

Ahhh, never mind. I'm starting to actually not mind the fact I'm schooling here, but I mind the fact I'm living here. So far ):

Jeg elsker dig, ♥
dansha.

Scary, but thrilling.
Let's try play Kuon some other night too.

School's starting tomorrow for all my dear friends in Singapore.
Mine is in one month.
Argh.

GOOD LUCK FOR SCHOOL KAY, BEBEHS?

I miss Ms Ng, and send my regards to everyone.
Tell Fifi I miss him, too.

Yes, it was based off the song in the previous post. I am so in love with it.

Oh, I love love love this song.

Bet everyone already knows how much I miss this place. Oh, I miss the view too. This was the last photo I took, in that flat, ever. One of the most beautiful things about that small apartment was the view, all the way from the 21st storey.

Oh, how I miss those lights, even till now.

Oh my God, I love this song.

I love love love looooooove you all.
Thanks SO MUCH for yesterdayyyy!
I've never had such a great time in so long, thank you thank you thank youuuu.

And thanks for "This Iz The Japanese Kabuki Rock". I never thought I'd ever be able to get my hands on it D:

NOW GO HUG YOURSELVES, CAUSE YOU RULE!

There's so much to say about yesterday, but I can't seem to put it into words. Too special, you see. The taxi ride was wonderful, and everything too. The studio might've been small but I loved the experience.

Aaaah, I miss all of you. I almost wanted to cry, but I didn't want to waste 2 minutes crying. I love you all so muchhhhhh. Thank you, thank you, thank youuuuuuuuu.

I can't put yesterday into words ><
How to blog like this!?

Dear My Friend, by Myv-san.
I love this song! The video's so adorable, and the meaning behind the song is awesome too! Maybe I'll have a project based on this next time!

I have to complete PMNB Proj. first though.
Dayemn, still don't know what to do.

You find a lot of joy in making me pissed, don't you? You run and complain, and come back with a girn on your face.

Anyway, now's no time to get angry. Tomorrow I'm going back to Singapore and I am freaking excited. *squeals* I finally got that white-framed sunglasses I've been eyeing. AWESOME, I can't believe the family agreed to travel all the way from Selangor to KL just to get it. Kay, well, they're not THAT far apart, but still, tsk, you know.

I really really reallllyyyy miss Singapore. I still regard that as my home, and guess what? Singapore is where my heart will always be. I'm still adapting to the new life here, and I think I'm doing quite well. I miss my friends terribly though.

Jaini's so darn nice. She said she'll top up money for me to buy Myv-san's album. HOW AM I TO REPAY YOU JAYYYYY T^T

Oh, just now was such an "in-your-face" moment for Abah. He does not allow Umi to change the RM 100 that Umibib gave me to SGD 50, but when Umi just did not listen to what he said, and exhanged the 100 for the 50, I looked at Abah, and he looked all >_>

In yo face, in yo face, in yo faaaaace xD

But I shall not be evil. My daddy's a nice man!

Imma go pack up a little while later, after I've done looking through shit on the internet.

MYV, I'M COMING TO GET YOU.

Woo, another edit I made based on another song by Myv-san. It isn't my best edit, I actually think it looks kind of weird! Yea, and the concept "We Are Freedom Fighters" are lame, but every single word you see in that edit is in the song. Yea, IN the song.

Freedom Fighters MV
Oh, no worries. The first time I heard it, I thought it sounded weird too. Back then. Myv-san's English wasn't that good, kay, so he must have pronounced some words wrong, or you might not even know he is saying the words "speech", "thought", "abuse" and "blame". Trust me, his English has gotten so much better. [thank God for the LA trip]

And sorry, since that video has a girl in a US bra HAHA.

Oh yes, and for those asking for a 360 degrees view of Myv-san's oh-so-colourful head, here it is. In this video, you most probably would be able to see every colour available on his head, back then of course, not now.


And how could I possibly forget this, ne? A photo where my darling Myv-san looks so tremendously young, and yet so sexy at the same time. Nice pink underwear too HAHA.

Kay, I've already done 2 edits which I have been wanting to do.
Still, the only thing which I have no idea what to do for is...
Yea, that's what PMNB on my MSN stands for.

Don't know what it is? Of course you have no idea what it means.
It's a project based off of this song, by Myv-san also.
Papa Mama -Nozomarenu Baby-
I know what you're probably thinking. "Why in the world this song?"

Well, I read the lyrics and translations of the song, and I thought it'd be really interesting to make an artwork out of it. Either a drawing, or just like the other 2, photo edits. And the way the song is sung plays a huge part in it too.

So... angsty, sad, depressed, a very "I-have-no-fucking-idea-what-to-do-anymore" kind of attitude. Very nice song. I love it.

These are the lyrics to the song.

*this was the beginning of an old Japanese folktale

Despite the really heavy music, I find the message brought out in this song very meaningful, thus I really really love this song.
And I really hope the outcome of this "project" is well-done!

Anybody got any suggestions?

Oh, before I forget. To those wondering, yes I am a very artsy person. I like expressing myself through my artworks, through what I wear, do, draw and whatsover. I like making tributes to people who have changed my life, thus my drawings of Bill Kaulitz [Tokio Hotel], sketches of Myv-san, and edits of songs that have impacted me greatly.

I love drawing what comes to my mind, and I like working in the wee hours of the night just to get my artwork done. Notice MY artwork. If it was schoolwork, go to hell. The art syllabus in school is so horribly done. We are not allowed to express ourselves our own way, and I don't like that. I thought art lessons would be fun-er >_>

Kay, shut up Sha. Stop talking about art.

Not as good as the previous one, but I especially like the hands in this one. And the nose. I don't know why it looks as though there's something wrong with his chin, and also with the arms, but I don't think the arms are as bad as the chin [I think]. At least I'm trying to brush up on my sketching skills. Still really difficult though.

One thing in particular I do not like about this photo are the clothes. The shading and everything. One reason why working with only 2B pencil is never a good idea. A need a set of sketching pencils. Or I'll go mad.

That's my sketch right there! I'm so proud of it. However, his body looks a little too skinny. The legs were improvisation, so it's not that good too. But I am very satisfied with how it came out. Much much much better than expected.

I have another sketch which I have not completed. And I don't know whether I will complete it, because it feels so screwed up. But I'm keeping the face!

Back to where I stopped off, ne?

Girls, Be Ambitious [7SS Version] <--- Most recommended
Kanji Lyrics | Romaji Lyrics | Translations
If you like I will stretch out this filthy hand of mine as far as you like.
We wont need a guide or anything, so let's walk together eyes closed.

Did you know, that a nife hurts more when it's pulled than when it's stabbed?
And a flower, doesn't even know it's own beauty it's entire life.
Sad, huh?

Kimi ni Negai Wo
Kanji Lyrics | Romaji Lyrics | Translations
Only, I always loved you.
Only that, just only that, though that's all I had.
And even now I love you as much as ever.

Selfish Love -Aishitekure, Aishiteru Kara- Music Video
Kanji Lyrics | Romaji Lyrics | Translations
Hey all of you, I love you.
I embrace you with a melody so sweet you'll melt
And a beat so hard you'll go numb,
I'll do anything to make you go mad.

I think I'll do this some other time.
It's like, so troublesome, with all the HTML-editing and shit.
But yea, there's more awesome songs.

So far, that's the only thing I can say to the world right now.
Thank you Myv-san ^^ You always know how I feel <33

Anyway, I think this post's gonna be kinda long. No, not because I've got some shit to get out of my mind, but because I was reading through translations of Myv's songs, and I thought some were very... nice. Excellent, heart-wrenching and breath-taking.

Sorry, I don't think that made sense.

Anywayyyy. Click the title of the song for the song itself, and everything else is self-explanatory. Many many thanks to Masakarasu!

Dear, From... XXX
Kanji Lyrics | Romaji Lyrics | Translations
Dear...
What came to me in the misty morning was an unmistakable truth,
From the other end of the line,
Your faint, hollow voice,
"If we end this, maybe..." Trembling, I'm already alone.


Onpu No Tegami
Kanji Lyrics | Romaji Lyrics
I'm not good at piano but, I hope you'll listen,
It's only three chords, though, I hope it reaches you.

There were always, always things I never said to you,
but I'm no good at putting them into words, it's embarassing, so I put it in music-notes.

Even if my throat is torn into shreds, even if I develop a polyp,
For as long as I live, for you, I shout for you.
so, I 've decided now. I've decided.

You know what? I think I'll continue later on in the day, because I'm afraid someone might wake up and catch me using the computer. Besides, I've got loads, and my tailbone hurts so bad right now, I can't concentrate.

Good morning everyone.

I MADE AN AWESOME SKETCH OF MYV
I MADE AN AWESOME SKETCH OF MYV
I MADE AN AWEEEEEEEESOMEEEEEE SKETCH OF MEE YAAA VEEEEE.

But I haven't uploaded it yet :P

I improvised, and drew in the legs, the side of guitar and all, AND I AM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY IT'S AWESOME. Because I think this is the BEST I have done so far! Looks like working from when I first woke up till now is really worth it.

YEEHAW.
YAY.
HAHA.
NIIIICE.

Can't wait for 20th!

I don't understand. Why? Why you? I know, maybe you have hurt some people, but everyone suddenly ganging up on you like this... It's UNFAIR. Sure, I'm not the one going through this, but seeing you go through it is hurtful enough, and don't you even try to tell me to relax and that everything will be fine, because I choose to be in this with you, and I will see it through till the end.

I cannot stand seeing you like this, and look at that the SHIT people are giving you. You do not deserve this. All the slandering, the hatred and everything. Being shunned and whatnot. You're a nice guy, one of the nicest I have ever met. Seeing you turn into some kind of disgrace to mankind... it's painful... it really is...

And it hurts me more knowing that there's almost nothing I can do but console you. Perhaps, maybe even the advices I give you are wrong or dumb.

You've hurt me once too, but I held nothing against you. I know people are different, but it's at times like these where I wish everyone else thought the way I think.

All the stuff you've gone through has SCREWED your ego SO BADLY, you hardly have any left. When they say you're being too humble, you're not. You're just really fucked up, and it's all because of these heartless people who care only for themselves.

DO THEY SEE JOY IN MAKING PEOPLE FEEL INFERIOR?
YOU FUCKING LOW-LIFES.
Isn't there anything better to do with your time other than making comments about people?
ISN'T THERE? DON'T YOU HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO, A FAMILY TO SPEND TIME WITH, OR WHATEVER OTHER SHIT YOU DO?

YES, I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I feel so hopeless.

I'm sorry... I'm sorry...
I'm sorry there's nothing I can do to help...
I sincerely want to...
But there's nothing I am able to do... isn't there?

I've never felt so useless.
The world's so cruel.

Don't tell me to be happy for you either, because I can't while knowing you're going through this.
I'm going through it WITH you.
I don't care.

I've lost you once, I'm not going to lose you another time.

Yay! It's finally done! I've been wanting to do a photo like this for such a long time, but I just couldn't find the time to do it! Now, it's done!

Before you all go thinking that this is just another edit I made because I am bored, you are wrong. I made this as tribute to my current music obsession, MIYAVI-SAN!

The music video, Kimi ni Negai Wo, inspired me greatly. It had such profound impact on me which I can't even begin to explain. I've had a concept in mind, whereby it seemed very fantasy-like, yet at the same time, still was very much rooted to the song.

Next thing I know, poof, this was born. And I am very proud of it. Yes, I am VERY proud because for the first time, I managed to complete something which has been in my head for so long, and it came out much better than expected.

This is where I got my inspirations from [click linkies, yo],
Kimi ni Negai Wo [Music Video]
Miyavi ["Kimi ni Negai Wo" cover art]

そして僕はそっと願うんだ。星になった君に願いを。
「もう大丈夫、一人で立てるから」と。だって僕は独りじゃないからね。
soshite boku wa sotto negaunda. hoshi ni nata kimi ni negai wo.
[mou daijoubu, hitori de tateru kara] to. datte boku wa hitori ja nai kara ne.
And I softly make a wish. A wish upon you, who has become a star.
"It's ok now, I can stand on my own". 'Cause I'm not alone, right.

You are too hyper. You are so spastic. You are psycho. You are wild, INSANE. You talk so fast, sometimes it doesn't even make sense! Your gestures are so animated. I hate how you have moves that only YOU can make look cool. You have such a short attention span. Perhaps you are suffering from Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. One moment you make expressions on your face, and the next you'll be rolling on sofas just to fall off them to run to pianos and play random keys.

You shout too much. You cannot sit still. But you're so weird, you can suddenly stop what you're doing and do nothing. You run up to people just to lie on them, hug them, slap them and whatever shit it is that you do. You own so much garb that only you can look good in and that frustrates me. I don't even know if you have identified your gender yet, because one moment you can be all manly and gangster-like, and the next you act all soft. Your features make you seem even more effeminate.

I mean, SERIOUSLY. What is WRONG with you?

Can you please stop acting cool, just for once? Can you stop standing out from the crowd so much? Can you stop looking so good all the time? Can you not be such a spaz?

Because all your flaws are blinding me.

And you know love is blind.

You're such an asshole.
iloveyoumiv.

Yes, I love you.
Uhuh, I might be a little messed up and retarded, but this song opened my eyes.
I'm already in too deep.
You people can try to pull me out,
just for a thrill.

Tisha's 2nd was great! She was so cute on that day! She was so happy and hyper, going all "Allo!" at everyone who called out her name. Awww, babyyy~

I can't really recall everything, but I was talking about school in Malaysia to my cousins and some of my aunties. Abah wore a this paper spectacles with his spectacles over, and that made him look like a fool. Raaiqa wore like 14 hats on her head, and Iskandar wore 3 hats on his head, making it look like horns. Haha!
Now I need people to send me some photos hurhurhur.

Spoke to Nadia and Hashim about horror ghost movies.
I know you'll be reading this sooner or later HAHAHA


LOOK NADIA, YOUR FRIIIIIIEND XD

Kay well, we're going off at 3. Ah shit. I don't want to go back home.
And if I do, I'm going to get so bored, I'll be posting stuff about Bill all day long.
My baby's smoking and drinking after a larynx operation. SOMEONE MAKE HIM STOP.
Haha, so much for wanting to be 18 because it's the legal drinking age.
I'll send you to the US because there it's 21. Go wait another 3 years! Haha!
And that ring you lost, well, you only have yourself to blame because you weren't even sober right? I think. Cause I heard you were drinking heavily ><

NT doesn't care, and I don't want to trouble my friends any further with my troubles. I'm glad I have THUK to hear my out on my problems. I LOVE YOU ALLLL~