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I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
shafiqah othman.
soundtracks to my soul ♥
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MIYAVI, my hero.He changed my life, he cleaned me up, he found my heart like only HE can. He made me discover myself, he's my drive, my inspiration, my voice, my soul, my song, my heart, my hero. ♥ I don't think I can ever have built a passion and found a dream if I had never found him. He makes my day each time, and every song he has written is etched in my mind, my heart and my soul. I am very protective of this man because I don't like people making fun of whoever it is that has left an impact in my life. He is all I need right now to keep me going to achieve my dreams. And don't be jealous that a guy in magenta nail polish can get more chicks than you.
GERARD WAY, the first.
He is undeniably an awesome person with a wonderful personality. He is always all-smiles and not forgetting he has a lovely smile. Whoever fails to love this man fails so much, because they are definitely blind. I knew him before I knew Miyavi, and he did the first few jobs to straightening my life out before handing it all over to him. He got married to someone else already, but I am happy for him, of course I am (: He has been the bestest there is for the past 2 years I was obsessed over him.
BILL KAULITZ, my porcupine.Bill makes awesome music and he, although young, is very talented and expressive. Miyavi is more expressive than he is, but hey! Bill just turned 19, and he definitely has a long way to go. He earned success through hard work and diligence, and for that, I love him to bits. He hasn't really done anything to change my life, but he's wonderful nonetheless. And yes, it's a he. A guy who happens to have long hair so you people think he's a girl. A guy whose face is effeminate and prettier than all you other guys out there. You're just jealous that a guy in black nailpolish can earn more chicks than you, just like Miyavi.
WILLIAM BECKETT, my laughing gas.
He's cute, I know. He's funny, even more. He's tall, has a great smile, wonderful personality, great sense of humor, wonderful singing voice, he's so... wow. I am not in love with him, but I pretty much look up to him and his group of friends, which includes oddities like Chislett, Mike Carden, Sisky and The Butcher to always make me feel better on days I'm feeling quite blue. They never fail to slap a smile onto my face because they are awesome and funny like that. Whoever has not seen these guys in action, but go and watch them ASAP because they. are. the. shiz. Great humourous bunch of people, who make awesome music as well. Who can't possibly love them!?
JOE JONAS, satisfaction
People who know me well, know damn well I do not like this guy. I don't even like him now, I'm just in this for the thrill. So yea, I don't hate him as much as I used to, but I don't like him much either. But, I'll have you know he's a damn good kisser and I should know, yes, I should know. And his saliva tastes like cherry/mint. No, don't even ask. Oooo, scandalous. And I just thought that after everything that happened, he deserved at least a mention for satisfying my lust.
People who know me well, know damn well I do not like this guy. I don't even like him now, I'm just in this for the thrill. So yea, I don't hate him as much as I used to, but I don't like him much either. But, I'll have you know he's a damn good kisser and I should know, yes, I should know. And his saliva tastes like cherry/mint. No, don't even ask. Oooo, scandalous. And I just thought that after everything that happened, he deserved at least a mention for satisfying my lust.
Friday, November 21, 2008
sfqomhz says:
ATIQAH SO MEAN
Atiqah. } says:
HAHAHA
Atiqah. } says:
EH I GOOD GIRL OKAY
Atiqah. } says:
*points to angel halo*
Atiqah. } says:
EVEN THE LIGHT IS BEAMING DOWN ON ME *points to the sun*
I LOVE MY WIFE.
4:06 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection.
Like an apple hanging from a tree, I picked the ripest one.
I still got the seed.
You said move on. Where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know.
Cause when I'm with him, I am thinking of you.
I wish that I was looking into your eyes.
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter.
Like a hard candy with a surprise center.
How do I get better once I've had the best.
You said there's tons of fish in the water.
So the waters I will test.
Like an apple hanging from a tree, I picked the ripest one.
I still got the seed.
You said move on. Where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know.
Cause when I'm with him, I am thinking of you.
I wish that I was looking into your eyes.
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter.
Like a hard candy with a surprise center.
How do I get better once I've had the best.
You said there's tons of fish in the water.
So the waters I will test.
This song reminds me of you. I still miss you very much. Very very very much. I guess no one really knows. I'm trying to let go, and honestly, this whole thing is ridiculous. It wasn't supposed to happen in the first place. It's forbidden. They don't know I miss you, you don't even know I miss you. I bet you think I'm not into you anymore. I try to not think of you, but yes, you're the best. You may not know. You've never held anything for me, but what I have towards you is still as strong as ever.
He drowns in his dreams.
An exquisite extreme I know.
He’s as damned as he seems and more heaven than a heart could hold.
And if I try to save him, my whole world could cave in.
It just ain't right.
He's magic and myth.
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with more damage than a soul should see.
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him.
Hold on tight.
He’s soft to the touch but frayed at the end he breaks.
He’s never enough and still he's more than I can take.
An exquisite extreme I know.
He’s as damned as he seems and more heaven than a heart could hold.
And if I try to save him, my whole world could cave in.
It just ain't right.
He's magic and myth.
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with more damage than a soul should see.
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him.
Hold on tight.
He’s soft to the touch but frayed at the end he breaks.
He’s never enough and still he's more than I can take.
This song reminds me of DANISH FAWAZ! Hahaha! I don't know why, it just does. I miss you, babi! You've been the greatest everrrrrrrrr, and friends for life, my dear friend. Thanks for always being there. You might have some other people that you can count on, but since this is a small world, and I'm so clinging, you're one of those that I need in my life. JEG ELSKER DIG! ♥ Hahaha omg that brings back memories. But ugh, what-eh-ver major loser.
I swear that you don't have to go.
I thought we could wait for the fireworks.
I thought we could wait for the snow to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt.
I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you.
Stay up all night with the stars, confess all the faith that I had in you.
It's too late, I'm sure and lonely.
Another night, another dream wasted on you.
Just be here now against me.
You know the words so sing along for me baby.
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry but you won't stop crying.
This anniversary may never be the same.
Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me,
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
And if I died right now you'd never be the same.
I thought we could wait for the fireworks.
I thought we could wait for the snow to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt.
I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you.
Stay up all night with the stars, confess all the faith that I had in you.
It's too late, I'm sure and lonely.
Another night, another dream wasted on you.
Just be here now against me.
You know the words so sing along for me baby.
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry but you won't stop crying.
This anniversary may never be the same.
Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me,
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
And if I died right now you'd never be the same.
This song reminds me of so many people, and it sure reminds me of the scenario of the computer lab during rainy days, or how cold it really is in there. It reminds me of my ITC lessons, it reminds me of Atiqah playing the guitar, reminds me of Aqilah singing, reminds me of Firdaus, reminds me of Hafiz singing it for a forfeit, reminds me Din. Goddamn, I seriously miss you all. I remember singing this song out on the bus stop at around 7 pm, with Atiqah. Danish, you were there. And so was Din. And it was my last day in Singapore. And on that same day, me and Aqilah hugged and cried in each other's arms. I miss you all, I miss you all, I miss you all.
Katie, don't cry, I know.
You're trying your hardest and the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared.
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting.
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright.
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but I want it so.
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight.
I know he's there.
You're probably hanging out and making eyes while across the room, he stares.
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor and ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes.
Because these words were never easier for me to say or her to second guess.
But I guess that I can live without you but without you I'll be miserable at best.
You're all that I hoped I'd find in every single way.
And everything I could give is everything you couldn't take.
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away.
And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
Because I know I'm good for something, I just haven't found it yet.
But I need it.
You're trying your hardest and the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared.
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting.
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright.
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but I want it so.
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight.
I know he's there.
You're probably hanging out and making eyes while across the room, he stares.
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor and ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes.
Because these words were never easier for me to say or her to second guess.
But I guess that I can live without you but without you I'll be miserable at best.
You're all that I hoped I'd find in every single way.
And everything I could give is everything you couldn't take.
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away.
And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
Because I know I'm good for something, I just haven't found it yet.
But I need it.
This song reminds me of all my bebehs. Reminds me of everyone I am close to in Singapore. Reminds me of all my loved ones, of all my teachers, of so so so so many people. Why? Because you people are all that I hoped I'd find in every single way. And nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away. This song makes me cry. I don't know what else to say. Because yes, I can live without you, but without you I'll be miserable at best. Is there really a need to mention who? I'm sure you all know who you are (:
Remember when we were going to take our 2nd English paper, and we all started tearing in the canteen because you guys remembered I was leaving after the exams? Atiqah started singing the song and we hugged. It's amazing how I can remember such little details. You guys are special to me like that.
ATIQAH.AQILAH.IZA.JAINI.BAVANI.FIRDAUS.HAFIZ.RYAN.DANISH.DIN.KHAIRUL
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5:28 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
So yay, finally my Audacity started working fine.
Iz recording songz.
Although I only had a short time spent in Singapore, I have to say it was fun, although not enough.
Got to meet up with Atiqah, Aqilah, Iza and Danish. I wished though I got to meet up with Bavani, Jaini, Sharmini and many others. Hell, I wished I went for the Class BBQ. Who cares if it sucked? All I want is to meet my bebehs.
The moment I saw Aqilah tapping out of the MRT, we screamed and ran and hugged each other and didn't let go till like 2 minutes later, and that's because we were going round in circles in each other's arms. Danish and his little brother was there too. Omg, I don't even know where to start, it was awesome. Then we met Iza at McD's, where shortly after Danish had to go.
"Ala, jangan la marah, I tau I salahhhh~" [/gay danish]
So then, me, Aq, and Iza proceeded to This Fashion to play dress-up. Very the kecoh, but very fun too. We practically conquered the damn fitting room. Then, we met Atiqah outside. Me and her just stood there looking at each other, with people walking past us, and we screamed like idiots. I DO MISS WIFEH. Then we walked around and stuff, and yea. YEA, it was fun okay.
We walked around aimlessly, ate at another McD's and a lot of other stuff. Gawd, I miss them.
Oh yea, and I skipped the nikah just to get to see them. I feel bad, but I missed bebehs too much! I heard that Widad took a photo with Rihanna. Jealous much ehhhh? I know I am. And Rihanna said her hair's HOT. Woohoo!
Mannn, I miss everyone in Malaysia, but then... I wished that I could've stayed in Singapore longer. I seriously, seriously miss my bebehs, but at the same time, I was going to go mad anytime, cause Nini wasn't there. I miss her! Haha! You know what's the best thing that could ever happen? Have all my good friends in one place. I tell you, the most painful part is on the way back to Malaysia, cause on the way back, you have no friends to accompany you.
And since the only thing I was allowed to use was a Malaysian prepaid line, since I was in Malaysia anyway, I had to sms and talk to my Malaysian friends for company on the way back. Sorry to Azim cause I fell asleep in the car! Smsing a Singapore number with a Singapore or a Malaysia number in Malaysia is very expensive, so, yea. I still wished I could've smsed Aqilah like, all the way back home. I'm planning on smsing Danish later too, since he doesn't have my new number.
I MISS YOU ALL ALREADY.
Thanks for making my trip back to Singapore worth remembering.
So looking forward to December when you all come to raid my house.
And I am soooo going to bring you guys around Buit Jelutong and meet all my friends.
You guyz teh awesumzxzxxzxssxzxsxz.
Oh and I forgot to say, DANISH IS SO FUCKING HOT HAHAHA.
And btw, the photo did not capture him in his full hotness glory.
atiqah.aqilah.iza.danish ♥
6:59 AM
TODAY WAS SHIT FUCK PISS FUN GILER BABI TO THE MAXMAXMAXMAX.
SEE, I'M SO HAPPY, I'M CURSING.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
PICTURES, NEXT POST.
AAAAAHHHH.
And Danish, you're fucking hot.
HAHA.
4:18 AM
Monday, November 17, 2008
I like you and all but DAMN BOY, YOU'VE GOT ISSUES.
3:24 AM
I wish I was there getting lost in LA with you.
It's not like I'm awesome at singing or anything, but now I've got a style that only I can do. I have more confidence in my originality, so I can mix popularity on top of that but still leave in some ironic parts, and that's what I want to put into my songs now. I'm not changing my stance of being unafraid of trying new things.
I love Miyavi to bits.
And forever shall be my hero of heroes.
2:14 AM
I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called.
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at all.
And you flashback to when he said "forever and always."
AND IT RAINS IN YOUR BEDROOM.
EVERYTHING IS WRONG.
IT RAINS WHEN YOU'RE HERE AND IT RAINS WHEN YOU'RE GONE.
Cause I was there when you said "forever and always."
Did you mean it, baby?
I don't think so.
1:26 AM
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